Jerry Springer in Wiggins, MS

Why do women always want to comfort and blame anyone else but the man with whom she's involved. I will never get that.

I remember when I found out Casini and Dorian's father was cheating with Charlie. I never got mad with her. The betrayal was with Gregory. Always will be.

When Alfred had women riding on the truck ... I didn't blame them for having their asses in there ... shit, Al let them in!

I had a women, Tina, send me the nastiest message via fb accusing me of having fantasies of her "fiance" going on in my head. Now mind you, Sherman Jones, is about 5 feet tall, nappy, nigga nappy, beady bee, high school graduate, works at the local plywood plant (making about $40,000.00--maybe) and lives in a trailer on his mother's property! Get real! Miss Tina! I don't even know where this man lives ... haven't looked for him .... please, not even a hint of curiosity :)

From the years past, I saw "Rev." Jones as a "little" brother working with the youth at Bethlehem Baptist Church ... until last week when he came by expressing wanting more, desiring more ... Where in the hell did this come from! Now mind you, in all his expressions of wanting and desiring over the years, watching and hearing the tales of my dates ... this man and that man, EHarmony, Match, etc. .... That's what single woman do .... DATE!!!! He would ask ... Who are you seeing now? Any prospects?? Nope, but I have a date with Match.com!! Then we would both laugh about it ... How innocent I thought.

When "Rev" Jones asked me to think about him differently, not as a religious leader or friend ... but as a man that is interested in getting to know a woman on a more one-on-one level .... I guess the "Rev" forgot that he moved Miss Tina and her daughters in with him! What was the timing and motivation ... after years of a successful, christian-based friendship .... After discovering this arrangement thru Ree who is friends with one of the daughters, I called him on it a few days later -- Disrespectful, and just so unnecessary, to both her and me! Cat got your tongue Sherman! Geez, it's not a molehole or a mountain! This man is not my concern nor would he ever be!

I'm not sure what Sherman said or didn't say to her ... but I did contact her via phone ... I'm not fbing anyone. I've known Sherman since arriving in Wiggins. He was an assistant and then acting pastor for Bethlehem Baptist Church here in Wiggins, headed the Youth Ministry. That was my only connection to him .... Isaac and Ree!  Why do woman come after woman .... although Miss Tina should have no concerns when it comes to me ...

I have my eyes on a 44, 6'4", 260 lb., all muscle--nofat---sexy, OMG sexy, man!

Her concern should be on the one she shares her bed with ... The one for whom she gave up her children's home inorder to move in with him. Investing her finances in a place that at the end of the day .. I hope things work out for her. Really, I do. Watch out Ms. Tina .... he's shown his spots ....  a cheater .... a liar ... if the potential is there ... it just doesn't go away ... not even when Rev. Jones puts on the collar!

This only confirms that I did the right thing by resigning from this congregation. A messy group of people.

Sherman betrayed the many years of our friendship but moreover, he betrayed Miss Tina, all in one swoop! Pitiful!

God please continue to lead and direct me!
Yo

I am Forgiven, Thank you David

Oh God,

I thank you for my new friend, David. His life is truly inspirational as I think of my own sons. God granted him restoration of life and love. I pray the same over the lives of my children.

I was listening to a bible study hour that comes on at 5am. This older white man sitting at a desk talking into a camera about God and scripture ... Always flipped the channel. I'm feeling really bad right now because I don't know the name of the man or the show. But have continually watched the ministry and am sure this is a learned, spiritual, interpretor of the Word. The Shepherd's Chapel.

2Thessalonians 3:6-10 was given to me today. A viewer wrote in a letter regarding sons that have gone astray yet want to keep coming home for money. How well do I know that! All three sons ... defiant! Doing it their own way, and not going anywhere!

Lord, please cover and keep my children from hurt, harm and danger.

I love you always,
Yo

Out of Touch

Hey God,

I apologize ... wondering if I am in the midst of a "left turn"?

You know of course I've been hanging out with the 44-year old soldier, "helping with school work".

I'm wondering more ... if he's actually helping me ... "get my sexy back!" Although, I don't believe its ever been lost, just inactive.

I enjoy the hugs and kisses of this younger, toned hard body that doesn't drink or smoke and works out on the regular.

But I'm not sure what else we may have in common??? Is there, will there be any glue??? We both have a lot going on in our financial lives ... enough not to take that baggage into a new relationship.

I love that he still dreams ... has aspirations ... and a blue print. Maybe the journey and sharing is the glue. I'll have to wait and see.

He'll be gone for a minute so there will be some time apart.

Lord,
I need to ask for a special covering and guidance over my children. Thank you always.

I love you Lord,
Yo