As I was watching "Marrying the Game" one of the women made the comment, "When there's conflict it seems to me there should be more communication not less."
44 is still very much in my thoughts. I found myself crying today at the register.
It stills baffles ... putting it mildly ... its more like turmoil in my head and body ... me why he had me come to Ft. Benning. I don't understand. I told him that I needed/wanted/should see him before he leaving for Afghanistan, to touch him before he left, to kiss his face, love on him as a woman in love with her man should... He understood why I was coming. He understood what he means to me ...
“Love is of all passions the strongest, for it attacks simultaneously the head, the heart and the senses.” Lao Tzu
For two people who believe in honor and integrity, trust, monogamy. But not with me??? My body has only known him, for good and bad. I thought we were a work in progress. Me learning his body. No toys ... I wanted him. Waiting for Ree to leave for her journey, me on mines to get back to work, he on his to prepare for retirement, finish his education, prepare for possible promotion, getting his credit/debt together.
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” Lao Tzu
Men have a saying ... I heard it on "The Game" the best way for a man to get over one woman is to get under another one. I want to be in love, just as I am in love with 44. And I want him to be in love with me with the same desire, intensity and commitment.
No matter how crazy I get, He will accept me for me. There's will be no other in my mind, my body, my spirit.
He stepped away when he left Texas without saying anything.
Help me God
Yo
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