Hi God,
I never thought I would be back here writing. But here we are... Sean has spiraled out of control. He's not in therapy. He's not taking his medication. He's suspicious. Accusatory. Mean. A kind of evil I've never seen or experienced before. Would he hurt me physically? I want to no. Everyone around me believes that he could, and perhaps would. That he could kill me. Really did I just write that! I want to delete it ... but I can't.
In two day, I will be celebrating my birthday ... without my husband. Not sure, if I ever had him fully.
God, I do love him very much and can't stomach the disdain that he exhibits to me. How do you spew such hatred to the women who cooks for you, lays next to you. I don't understand.
God, he says he remembers when he first saw me in line at a local eatery. Where is that man? What has captured his mind.
God, I pray for peace of mind for my husband. I pray for healing and wellness. God let his thoughts be on you and his wife.
God, place upon his heart why he married me. Place upon his heart remorse and regret. Please upon his heart humility and humbleness. Place upon his heart love for me.
God, I know you are always with me and you have never allowed me to go left. So, I have to believe that you meant for this marriage to take place for the both of us.
God, be in the midst of this and have Your way with us. I will accept and be obedient.
I love you always,
Yo
