Wrapped it with a Red Ribbon ... FYI

 

I have so missed this body. He has certainly set the standard or at least provided with the Once Upon A Time. I enjoyed his energy, humor, wisdom .... and his beauty .... inside and out.

These last few days I will not attach to the time spent with him.

I loved him. He loved me.


-----Original Message-----
From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Tue, Mar 3, 2015 11:14 am
Subject: FYI

I not going to use this ... but did find without paying for any background check. Just did a search.

This is the best way to maintain my own integrity and moral constitution. I have no interest in revenge  or causing you any harm.

-----Original Message-----
From: Yo
To:
Sent: Mon, Mar 2, 2015 12:16 am
Subject:

2 .  2xxx5 D..... L... W... L.....ville B W xxx-925-xxxx
3 .  2xxx5 D..... L... W... L.....ville T W xxx-925-xxxx
4 .  2xxx5 D..... L... W... L.....ville T W xxx-521-xxxx
5 .  2xxx5 D..... L... W... L......ville T W
6 .  2xxx5 D..... L... W... L......ville T W xxx-925-xxxx

Who's the Student, Who's the Teacher

 

Closure to Master Sgt. Bennett Wilson, RIP

-----Original Message-----
From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Tue, Mar 3, 2015 8:58 am
Subject: Re: Admiration

I could never hurt you.

Thank you, Yolanda


-----Original
Message-----
From: bdub
To: Yo
Sent: Tue, Mar 3, 2015 8:46 am
Subject: Re:
Admiration


 Yolanda,
   
First apologize to you is needed, Sorry.  If revenge is needed go ahead, green light.  Nothing you or anyone else can do to me because im already going through the storm. God is doing what he need for me and I ask  for you to enjoy your new life and school. Be Blessed on your journey

 
    
On Tuesday, March 3, 2015 12:51 AM, Yo wrote:
       
I don't think there's a woman on this earth that will ever love you as much as I have loved you.    
       
I have thoughts of revenge .. contacting Phoenix about my part in your studies. Contacting Tracy regarding your infidelity.    
    
But I can't. Because that will take away from me, the pledge of honesty and trust I made to you. No need to hurt an innocent person. No need to try and hurt you.     

Again, maybe one day. You'll explain and apologize. Maybe one day, God's love will touch your heart for me.    


     
    
    
     
    
    
        

Master Sgt. 44

44

I'll have to read this more than a couple of times


-----Original Message-----
From: Yo
To: Bennett
Sent: Mon, Mar 2, 2015 1:13 pm


Please don't ignore my request for explanation. I know I asked if you were married or if there was anyone in your life that could be hurt by my presence in yours. 


-----Original
Message-----
From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Mon, Mar 2, 2015 12:01 am
Subject: Really!

Why would you let me involve myself with you. Why didn't you break it off when you left for Texas?
Why did you have me come to Ft. Benning?

I can't make you talk with me but I  wish you would. I never saw you as a cheater or liar ... so this is why I could never come to Georgia?

Even now its still hurts. You once said that no woman has ever taken better care of you as I.

I'm not living in the past, I was hoping to see if there was a welcome home article. Just didn't expect to see pics of you and a wife.

I always felt that there was something with me, something that I wasn't doing enough of. Wanting you to know that I had your back and could be counted on when shit hit the fan. I wanted to be the one that you called when you needed someone.

I loved you ... please explain.

Thank you,
Yo

Transparency vs Juxitposition

Hi God,

I am experiencing transparency in the raw and in real time ...

What do you do with ... how do I feel about being Googled, searched?

When....Has that now become part of the pre-courting process?

When you background search ... do you disclose any of this process of searching and the "found" information?

Does it diminish the romance, the spontaneity, the mystery of getting to know someone?

I feeling ambivalence about it all. My blog is public yet one would have to search me out to find it ... there's no links to Facebook or LinkedIn or any other social network.

It's a blog and its meant to read. I guess its not really something I want to discuss. If you found it, read it. It may or not give you a window into who I am.

My entries are simple snapshots of experiences, memories for my reference of left and right turns.

Ancestry: Mulatto + Ashkenazie Jew = BRCA2+ = 6174delT Mutant

BRCA2+

This is where is starts ... not sure which side of family it comes from ... but some of have ... I do ... others may not. Begin by reading this. Invite other family members to join this group ... all the separate needs to put aside for the safety of each of us and the future of our children and their children.

I will share what I have learned so far and what I am experiencing.

Met with the Chief of Oncology ... at the old Old Court Hospital now known as Northwest Hospital. He gave me a breast exam and pelvic exam ... got off the table. He said well the good news is that you don't have cancer.

Then started to talk about the gene and related cancers: breast, ovarian and pancreatic .... geez. He order an cat scan of my abdomen to check out my uterus and ovaries ... He wants them gone ... along with the breasts while they are healthy tissue.

Then the pancreatic cancer ... no treatment but I will need to do two test alternate years for maintenance and to "catch it" early if something should happen. He also referred me to a Gyn Oncologist for a pap smear ...

Saw her Friday .... all normal ... referring me to someone else to do the surgery that specializes in oncology and removing the uterus/ovaries.

Cat scan was an awful feeling with the dye .... didn't like that. Tests came back normal.
Tuesday, I meet with the breast surgeon that worked on my mom, Dawn Leonard. Haven't searched her on FB yet ... but will after this post. Beautiful, young, married with two children sister!

Sooooo much, so fast! They are all saying the same thing. The gene places you in the 85% .... so its not an "if" but "when".

Has anyone else gone through genetic testing? Has anyone else experienced any cancer?

This is the beginning of creating a medical family history .

Three Generations & a Hope Not

Hmm, a little genealogy ... There is a Delaware census listing momma and her siblings as mulatto along with her mother.

Believe her mom was of Jewish ancestry. Ashkenazie Jew, DNA gene location: 6174delT

There were two waves of immigration prior to WWII. So much more to know...

 

 

I got diagnosed with fibrocystic breast back in college. Started mammograms early. Some years, twice. I have always been closely monitored.

Due to the history of family breast cancer .. talked to your gyn doctor and order a mammogram ... don't wait.

University of Maryland, Breast Cancer Program, found a cyst in 2005, it was benign.

I always have a annual mammogram and kept good medical records.