Closer to Being Farther from the Past

Hi God,

Thank you so very much. Getting around to getting this implant and saying good-bye to the fist in the mouth by one. Good-bye Doc. I should have let him leave that day. I pulled him back from walking out the door. Nope, kept him from leaving and this is what I got.

So, many times you have opened a door to advance me and/or protect me from others ... and myself.

I had the dead tooth pulled last December 2016. Then the flipper. Today, the anchor! In 120 days the final tooth.

Moving farther from the past!

Am I a Ladder or Rope

Dear God,

Do I show Casini, Dorian, Isaac how to get out ... a ladder. Or, am I allowing them to pull on me to get out of their mess ... a rope.

Casini is doing well.

Dorian is trying. Until he understands himself, he'll continue to struggle because this barrier is keep him from being successful. He has what it takes to be successful.

Isaac, is lost. Lost, rejects all assistance. But is willing to beg.

When Is the First Time You Remember?

Hi God,

Ivanla's #FIXMYLIFE, I didn't catch the episode number but it's about a husband who admits his abuse. Ivanla asks the wife why do you stay? How do you lay next to someone that chokes you, calls you the vulgar of names .... My story

Ivanla's discussion with her where she suggests this is not the first time a man has put their hands on you. Question to the wife, "When is the first time a man put his hands on you?" When she was 4 and was molested.

When was the first time I remember a man putting his hands on me. Joe Lonesome, I'll never forget his name. No molestation but very violent. He was violent with mom .... he was violent with me ... and she, mom, forgave him, protected him. She betrayed me by not protecting me.

Next time, my grandfather. Gee and I were home alone.  Gee had one of the neighborhood boys in the house. We sat in the living room talking. When daddy came home, we all were scared. I remember telling him ... she didn't do anything, they were just talking. Against the bathroom door I was pushed. Daddy put his hands around my neck while telling me that she was his daughter. I was not to tell him anything about what to do with her.

Then there's my husband, Sean. When people show you who they are ... believe them! When they say they're meaner than anyone I would have known or will ever know.