Why do women always want to comfort and blame anyone else but the man with whom she's involved. I will never get that.
I remember when I found out Casini and Dorian's father was cheating with Charlie. I never got mad with her. The betrayal was with Gregory. Always will be.
When Alfred had women riding on the truck ... I didn't blame them for having their asses in there ... shit, Al let them in!
I had a women, Tina, send me the nastiest message via fb accusing me of having fantasies of her "fiance" going on in my head. Now mind you, Sherman Jones, is about 5 feet tall, nappy, nigga nappy, beady bee, high school graduate, works at the local plywood plant (making about $40,000.00--maybe) and lives in a trailer on his mother's property! Get real! Miss Tina! I don't even know where this man lives ... haven't looked for him .... please, not even a hint of curiosity :)
From the years past, I saw "Rev." Jones as a "little" brother working with the youth at Bethlehem Baptist Church ... until last week when he came by expressing wanting more, desiring more ... Where in the hell did this come from! Now mind you, in all his expressions of wanting and desiring over the years, watching and hearing the tales of my dates ... this man and that man, EHarmony, Match, etc. .... That's what single woman do .... DATE!!!! He would ask ... Who are you seeing now? Any prospects?? Nope, but I have a date with Match.com!! Then we would both laugh about it ... How innocent I thought.
When "Rev" Jones asked me to think about him differently, not as a religious leader or friend ... but as a man that is interested in getting to know a woman on a more one-on-one level .... I guess the "Rev" forgot that he moved Miss Tina and her daughters in with him! What was the timing and motivation ... after years of a successful, christian-based friendship .... After discovering this arrangement thru Ree who is friends with one of the daughters, I called him on it a few days later -- Disrespectful, and just so unnecessary, to both her and me! Cat got your tongue Sherman! Geez, it's not a molehole or a mountain! This man is not my concern nor would he ever be!
I'm not sure what Sherman said or didn't say to her ... but I did contact her via phone ... I'm not fbing anyone. I've known Sherman since arriving in Wiggins. He was an assistant and then acting pastor for Bethlehem Baptist Church here in Wiggins, headed the Youth Ministry. That was my only connection to him .... Isaac and Ree! Why do woman come after woman .... although Miss Tina should have no concerns when it comes to me ...
I have my eyes on a 44, 6'4", 260 lb., all muscle--nofat---sexy, OMG sexy, man!
Her concern should be on the one she shares her bed with ... The one for whom she gave up her children's home inorder to move in with him. Investing her finances in a place that at the end of the day .. I hope things work out for her. Really, I do. Watch out Ms. Tina .... he's shown his spots .... a cheater .... a liar ... if the potential is there ... it just doesn't go away ... not even when Rev. Jones puts on the collar!
This only confirms that I did the right thing by resigning from this congregation. A messy group of people.
Sherman betrayed the many years of our friendship but moreover, he betrayed Miss Tina, all in one swoop! Pitiful!
God please continue to lead and direct me!
Yo
Friday, September 30, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
I am Forgiven, Thank you David
Oh God,
I thank you for my new friend, David. His life is truly inspirational as I think of my own sons. God granted him restoration of life and love. I pray the same over the lives of my children.
I was listening to a bible study hour that comes on at 5am. This older white man sitting at a desk talking into a camera about God and scripture ... Always flipped the channel. I'm feeling really bad right now because I don't know the name of the man or the show. But have continually watched the ministry and am sure this is a learned, spiritual, interpretor of the Word. The Shepherd's Chapel.
2Thessalonians 3:6-10 was given to me today. A viewer wrote in a letter regarding sons that have gone astray yet want to keep coming home for money. How well do I know that! All three sons ... defiant! Doing it their own way, and not going anywhere!
Lord, please cover and keep my children from hurt, harm and danger.
I love you always,
Yo
I thank you for my new friend, David. His life is truly inspirational as I think of my own sons. God granted him restoration of life and love. I pray the same over the lives of my children.
I was listening to a bible study hour that comes on at 5am. This older white man sitting at a desk talking into a camera about God and scripture ... Always flipped the channel. I'm feeling really bad right now because I don't know the name of the man or the show. But have continually watched the ministry and am sure this is a learned, spiritual, interpretor of the Word. The Shepherd's Chapel.
2Thessalonians 3:6-10 was given to me today. A viewer wrote in a letter regarding sons that have gone astray yet want to keep coming home for money. How well do I know that! All three sons ... defiant! Doing it their own way, and not going anywhere!
Lord, please cover and keep my children from hurt, harm and danger.
I love you always,
Yo
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Out of Touch
Hey God,
I apologize ... wondering if I am in the midst of a "left turn"?
You know of course I've been hanging out with the 44-year old soldier, "helping with school work".
I'm wondering more ... if he's actually helping me ... "get my sexy back!" Although, I don't believe its ever been lost, just inactive.
I enjoy the hugs and kisses of this younger, toned hard body that doesn't drink or smoke and works out on the regular.
But I'm not sure what else we may have in common??? Is there, will there be any glue??? We both have a lot going on in our financial lives ... enough not to take that baggage into a new relationship.
I love that he still dreams ... has aspirations ... and a blue print. Maybe the journey and sharing is the glue. I'll have to wait and see.
He'll be gone for a minute so there will be some time apart.
Lord,
I need to ask for a special covering and guidance over my children. Thank you always.
I love you Lord,
Yo
I apologize ... wondering if I am in the midst of a "left turn"?
You know of course I've been hanging out with the 44-year old soldier, "helping with school work".
I'm wondering more ... if he's actually helping me ... "get my sexy back!" Although, I don't believe its ever been lost, just inactive.
I enjoy the hugs and kisses of this younger, toned hard body that doesn't drink or smoke and works out on the regular.
But I'm not sure what else we may have in common??? Is there, will there be any glue??? We both have a lot going on in our financial lives ... enough not to take that baggage into a new relationship.
I love that he still dreams ... has aspirations ... and a blue print. Maybe the journey and sharing is the glue. I'll have to wait and see.
He'll be gone for a minute so there will be some time apart.
Lord,
I need to ask for a special covering and guidance over my children. Thank you always.
I love you Lord,
Yo
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Cougar! Me??
Hey God,
Sorry, I haven't talked with you for a while, but I thank you for always being there.
Boy, this guy is 44 years old .... Does this make me a cougar? I don't know. He say no. Would I date someone 5 years older ... than 5 years younger is still in the same range. Cougar .... at least a 13 years difference.
We met @ Hooters this past Friday, 22nd, after my return from Jackson. Showed up in a warmup suit. Seems a lot taller than in his uniform ... just as sexy! I do know that I enjoyed his conversation. He's funny.
Seems he's dates older; his ex-wife was seven years older.
Has a wonderful relationship with his daughter.
Very protective over the women in his life.
Good first impression. Hope to see him again soon.
Thanks again God,
I love you Lord,
Yo
Sorry, I haven't talked with you for a while, but I thank you for always being there.
Boy, this guy is 44 years old .... Does this make me a cougar? I don't know. He say no. Would I date someone 5 years older ... than 5 years younger is still in the same range. Cougar .... at least a 13 years difference.
We met @ Hooters this past Friday, 22nd, after my return from Jackson. Showed up in a warmup suit. Seems a lot taller than in his uniform ... just as sexy! I do know that I enjoyed his conversation. He's funny.
Seems he's dates older; his ex-wife was seven years older.
Has a wonderful relationship with his daughter.
Very protective over the women in his life.
Good first impression. Hope to see him again soon.
Thanks again God,
I love you Lord,
Yo
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
National Marriage Project
Hi God,
Boy, Your timing ... don't put You on schedule or clock but you are always on time!
Dr. Neil Clark Warren, Founder and Chairman of eHarmony.com, Clinical Psychologist and Author wrote an article: "On Second Thought, Don't Get Married"
Excerpt:
And inspiring marriages don't happen by accident. They require highly informed and carefully reasoned choices. Commitment and hard work are factors too. But after decades of working with a few thousand well-intended and hardworking married people, I've become convinced that 75 percent of what culminates in a disappointing marriage -- or a great marriage -- has far less to do with hard work and far more to do with partner selection based on "broad-based compatibility." It became clear to me that signs which were predictive of the huge differences between eventually disappointing and ultimately great marriages were obvious during the premarital phase of relationships.
See you have got to do the work: weeding, go with your gut! Don't make that turn down the stairs when you can see the light right in front of you.
Thank you again God for the dream,
Yo
Boy, Your timing ... don't put You on schedule or clock but you are always on time!
Dr. Neil Clark Warren, Founder and Chairman of eHarmony.com, Clinical Psychologist and Author wrote an article: "On Second Thought, Don't Get Married"
Excerpt:
And inspiring marriages don't happen by accident. They require highly informed and carefully reasoned choices. Commitment and hard work are factors too. But after decades of working with a few thousand well-intended and hardworking married people, I've become convinced that 75 percent of what culminates in a disappointing marriage -- or a great marriage -- has far less to do with hard work and far more to do with partner selection based on "broad-based compatibility." It became clear to me that signs which were predictive of the huge differences between eventually disappointing and ultimately great marriages were obvious during the premarital phase of relationships.
See you have got to do the work: weeding, go with your gut! Don't make that turn down the stairs when you can see the light right in front of you.
Thank you again God for the dream,
Yo
Monday, July 4, 2011
Sometimes It Over Before It Starts
Hi God,
I wish I could have Steve Harvey.com for 3 months! Match.com will end on the 7th of July. No luck. No luck with EHarmony.com. Sent Sensa.com back for a refund! I will keep the Alli.com.
A retired soldier came into the PX and left his number with one of the cashiers. I did have a chance to talk with him while there. The conversation was polite. He seemed very interested.
He was in the store to purchase a computer. His crashed while working on a paper ... in graduate school working on his Masters in Accounting. Okay, sounds good.
My first reaction ... His breath was FOUL! I had to back up. But was thinking he seems fit ... no stomach. Tall. Not sexy but presentable. When I went outside, I saw him light up a cigarette .... now I understand.
Well, I talked to him this evening. Come to learn that he possibly not intending to finish. Wants just to able to say it on his resume that he is currently working on a Master's degree without the intent of finishing.
What does that say ....? He lacks commitment? He lacks integrity?
No ... not sexy ... smart men are very sexy! Driven men are very sexy! Capable men are very sexy!
Not sexy! Not driven! Not capable!
Love you God!
Yo
I wish I could have Steve Harvey.com for 3 months! Match.com will end on the 7th of July. No luck. No luck with EHarmony.com. Sent Sensa.com back for a refund! I will keep the Alli.com.
A retired soldier came into the PX and left his number with one of the cashiers. I did have a chance to talk with him while there. The conversation was polite. He seemed very interested.
He was in the store to purchase a computer. His crashed while working on a paper ... in graduate school working on his Masters in Accounting. Okay, sounds good.
My first reaction ... His breath was FOUL! I had to back up. But was thinking he seems fit ... no stomach. Tall. Not sexy but presentable. When I went outside, I saw him light up a cigarette .... now I understand.
Well, I talked to him this evening. Come to learn that he possibly not intending to finish. Wants just to able to say it on his resume that he is currently working on a Master's degree without the intent of finishing.
What does that say ....? He lacks commitment? He lacks integrity?
No ... not sexy ... smart men are very sexy! Driven men are very sexy! Capable men are very sexy!
Not sexy! Not driven! Not capable!
Love you God!
Yo
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Promiscuity and Perception
Promiscuity. This entry is for my daughter.
I always want her to know the truth and learn from what life lessons have taught me. She read my blog today and commented, respectfully, that she thought is sounded as if I "got around". Thus, the reason for defining promiscuity.
I told her, no ... and she knows that I don't "get around" but that this blog is about making decision-making .... to say "no" even when you want to say "yes". She thought my fantasing of kissin the Major during my first encounter with him at the gas station was "gross". But that's what makes it a fantasy ... you think, imagine, but you don't!
One day, she will have an "at first" encounter and hopefully she will, as much as she may be attracted, say, "NO". Then perhaps she remember my blog entry and understand.
I wished I had said "No" to her father! I could have detoured from those years. I love my children but the relationship that got them here .... was definitely a turn to go down the stairs .... Dark brown, muscular, 240-255lbs., 6'2" ... naturally, without working out! My family jokingly called him, Jethro. Remember the Beverly Hill Billies! Within three months of our meeting, I was pregnant with Isaac. Two years later, with Ree. If I had waited ... met his family, his habits ...
I hope that what I give her is a mom that's interested in her dreams and aspirations. When you graduate at age 16, only pushing yourself so that you can get out of your mother's house, never really feeling like you had a home. Home being where the heart is. Never felt "the heart" of my mom. Don't remember kisses and hugs or "I love you" on the way out of door. I hope Ree knows that there is no one on this earth more important to me that her and her siblings. I would give my life for them. Sometimes, it feels as if I have.
She must didn't read the entry about instituting the Steve Harvey rule from his book, Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man. The believe Steve gives a lot of good dating advice for women.
One rule ... perhaps ... RULE #1: WAIT ON SEX! Steve suggest waiting 3-6 months ... by then you will get to know the stuff that you wouldn't have gotten to know waiting 3-6 days or 3-6 weeks! Meet his family, meet his friends!
An excerpt from the book: Although I linked it above .... I believe its worth the cut & paste!
"As an auto plant worker, Steve says he had to wait 90 days to receive benefits—and says the same probation period should apply to dating. "In 90 days they checked me out. They determined if I was easy to work with, if I got along well with others, if I showed up when I said I was going to show up, if I was worthy."
Women, Steve says, hold the greatest benefit of all—the cookie—so there's no reason to give it away until you know your man deserves it. "Slow down, ladies," Steve says. "Look, you cannot run us off."
So what if you don't want to wait 90 days? Steve says if you change the probation period, you do so at your own risk. "You all keep changing the rules. And men are aware of the fact that you are changing the rules. We're aware of the fact that you act desperate. We're aware of the fact that you think there's a good shortage of good men out there," he says."
Respect and love thyself!
There's no shortage, but you do have to do some weeding! That's all I'm doing ... weeding ... intuition. A dinner here, lunch there ... A cup of coffee at Waffle House. I like to feel and hear his conversation ... his opinions. Intuition.
I hope she waits for the right one. The one that cares about whether or not at the end of the day is she okay, are her needs met, did he make her smile at least once during her day. Don't settle. Never settle for a 3! Get to know him, get to know his family, his friends ... his ways and beliefs will come out. Make an informed decision not just an emotional one.
I love you very much Ree. I hope to learn something about myself over this year's journey of discovery. Support my journey.
You're 16 and entering your junior year. You will probably have your first boyfriend this year ... junior prom ... preparing for your senior year ... ROTC, COLLEGE, maybe the Delayed Entry Program into the Air Force ... you have choices. Just take your time ... take a breath ... think about if first .... it can wait until tomorrow.
You're about the leave the house to begin your own life's journey and I will be left to continue mines.
My wish for you is peace, love and happiness. Take your time ... have fun, enjoy life. Make sure he's a friend first. Nothing serious until after you finish college then perhaps you will be ready for a longterm relationship .... not marriage .... not yet!
I love you Lord for this opportunity to speak to my daughter who is young lady and becoming a young woman. Lead and guide her, Father.
I love you,
Yo
I always want her to know the truth and learn from what life lessons have taught me. She read my blog today and commented, respectfully, that she thought is sounded as if I "got around". Thus, the reason for defining promiscuity.
I told her, no ... and she knows that I don't "get around" but that this blog is about making decision-making .... to say "no" even when you want to say "yes". She thought my fantasing of kissin the Major during my first encounter with him at the gas station was "gross". But that's what makes it a fantasy ... you think, imagine, but you don't!
One day, she will have an "at first" encounter and hopefully she will, as much as she may be attracted, say, "NO". Then perhaps she remember my blog entry and understand.
I wished I had said "No" to her father! I could have detoured from those years. I love my children but the relationship that got them here .... was definitely a turn to go down the stairs .... Dark brown, muscular, 240-255lbs., 6'2" ... naturally, without working out! My family jokingly called him, Jethro. Remember the Beverly Hill Billies! Within three months of our meeting, I was pregnant with Isaac. Two years later, with Ree. If I had waited ... met his family, his habits ...
I hope that what I give her is a mom that's interested in her dreams and aspirations. When you graduate at age 16, only pushing yourself so that you can get out of your mother's house, never really feeling like you had a home. Home being where the heart is. Never felt "the heart" of my mom. Don't remember kisses and hugs or "I love you" on the way out of door. I hope Ree knows that there is no one on this earth more important to me that her and her siblings. I would give my life for them. Sometimes, it feels as if I have.
She must didn't read the entry about instituting the Steve Harvey rule from his book, Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man. The believe Steve gives a lot of good dating advice for women.
One rule ... perhaps ... RULE #1: WAIT ON SEX! Steve suggest waiting 3-6 months ... by then you will get to know the stuff that you wouldn't have gotten to know waiting 3-6 days or 3-6 weeks! Meet his family, meet his friends!
An excerpt from the book: Although I linked it above .... I believe its worth the cut & paste!
"As an auto plant worker, Steve says he had to wait 90 days to receive benefits—and says the same probation period should apply to dating. "In 90 days they checked me out. They determined if I was easy to work with, if I got along well with others, if I showed up when I said I was going to show up, if I was worthy."
Women, Steve says, hold the greatest benefit of all—the cookie—so there's no reason to give it away until you know your man deserves it. "Slow down, ladies," Steve says. "Look, you cannot run us off."
So what if you don't want to wait 90 days? Steve says if you change the probation period, you do so at your own risk. "You all keep changing the rules. And men are aware of the fact that you are changing the rules. We're aware of the fact that you act desperate. We're aware of the fact that you think there's a good shortage of good men out there," he says."
Respect and love thyself!
There's no shortage, but you do have to do some weeding! That's all I'm doing ... weeding ... intuition. A dinner here, lunch there ... A cup of coffee at Waffle House. I like to feel and hear his conversation ... his opinions. Intuition.
I hope she waits for the right one. The one that cares about whether or not at the end of the day is she okay, are her needs met, did he make her smile at least once during her day. Don't settle. Never settle for a 3! Get to know him, get to know his family, his friends ... his ways and beliefs will come out. Make an informed decision not just an emotional one.
I love you very much Ree. I hope to learn something about myself over this year's journey of discovery. Support my journey.
You're 16 and entering your junior year. You will probably have your first boyfriend this year ... junior prom ... preparing for your senior year ... ROTC, COLLEGE, maybe the Delayed Entry Program into the Air Force ... you have choices. Just take your time ... take a breath ... think about if first .... it can wait until tomorrow.
You're about the leave the house to begin your own life's journey and I will be left to continue mines.
My wish for you is peace, love and happiness. Take your time ... have fun, enjoy life. Make sure he's a friend first. Nothing serious until after you finish college then perhaps you will be ready for a longterm relationship .... not marriage .... not yet!
I love you Lord for this opportunity to speak to my daughter who is young lady and becoming a young woman. Lead and guide her, Father.
I love you,
Yo
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