Turning Point - My Happiness Project

Hi God,

I get some many messages from people: Bennett, Ree, Casini, Nancy, Joel Olsteen, my Facebook friends, my relatives and just people I come in contact with on a daily basis: Yolanda, my wish for you is to be happy, take time out for you, learn about you.

 

So, Nancy has left for Kuwait and now I am in West Virginia ... an unfamiliar land with unfamiliar people. Now, this part isn't knew but I think there's a challenge of  being in the mountain in the middle of winter. But I guess it doesn't have to be a challenge ....

So, starting this weekend ... I have to try something new ... a new dish, a new restaurant, a new place never travelled to .... just something but it has to be a new experience.

Thank you God for this opportunity and the happiness!

Yo

My Three Sons

Hi God,

I don't write about Cini, Dori and Ike; probably, because it is a highly emotionally charged conversation. I do need to do this and its coming.

Cini - Incarcerated.

Dori - Standing on his own two while struggling with probation and its impact.

Ike - Standing on his own two while waiting for a pending domestic charge to run its course.

Each hard-headed in their own way. Today, there's is a "must" from my heart for them and letting go to "their way".

God, they're in your Hands. I love them all as a mother will.

My heart hurts for them,

Always,
Yo

West Virginia - First Week's End

Hi God,

For good or bad, I'm here. Not sure if by life's choice or demand ... but a change was necessary.

First time living on someone else's dime and time. Grateful for the invitation but it is a bit intense and uncomfortable for me. Never lived with anyone, now as a in-kind boarder. That maybe harsh.

Trying to minimize my "stuff" so not to overcrowd her space.

Went to church today, Barrackville West Virginia, Barrackville United Methodist Church ... it was a bit sad. The entire gathering must be over the age of 60 ... one single young person who looked about 10-12 who was an alter girl ... if there were any more ... I didn't see them. Yet, they weren't sad at all ... very grateful for life and aspire to continue to work for the Lord on behalf of others. Everyone was very welcoming ... shaking my hand ... plenty of smiles ....

Next week, we'll visit another church.

Lord, I haven't heard from Bennett in about a week which is not unusual considering his behavior before leaving for Afghanistan. I pray that You, Lord, keep him safe.

Today, got a little feelings hurt. Bennett and Ree would say I just need to toughen up. Probably shouldn't be. Just an adjustment to make in the future. She left without saying good-bye or where she was going. The same issue that Bennett and I encountered during my visit. Went for the walk in the park that we spoke of earlier. Felt that I had to much going on to go. I don't like people making decisions for me. Felt like a child being grounded.

She commented that perhaps I needed to remain "grounded" because I got a lot done. She was laughing but you know the old saying about there being a little truth in every joke. She may be feeling crowded by my stuff in the garage. Seems a bit passive aggressive. I'm going to continue to get my stuff out of her way. I do want to be a good houseguest while I'm here. Perhaps, we shouldn't do to much together then I wouldn't feel this way. Maybe she feels crowded. Later, she offered the rational that may occur when you are used to living alone, to just get up and leave. That seems about right.

I'll talk with you later. Need to get the living room cleaned up.

Love you always,
Yo

The Hills and Turns of West Virginia

The Journey begins: Leaves the shores of the most southern coast
to the mountains

With Harriett Tubman, we will travel to the North
for new life beginnings

What more confirmation do I need!!

He Loves Me!

God,

He said it! I know, I know ... he's said before. But this time, in an email ... I know that I know that 44 loves me! I am so happy. I want him more and more with every breath!

From:	bdub
To:	Yo
Subject:	Re: Ree's on her way
Date:	Sat, Aug 31, 2013 3:43 am

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I Love You Too Sexy

From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Saturday, August 31, 2013 4:35 AM
Subject: Re: Ree's on her way

I love you Mr. Wilson

Sent via ZTE Warp on Boost Mobile

bdub  wrote:

>

Keep in touch

From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Saturday, August 31, 2013 3:12 AM
Subject: Re: Ree's on her way

Leaving MS. Everything closed out.

Sent via ZTE Warp on Boost Mobile

bdub  wrote:

She is a big girl now

From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Tuesday, August 6, 2013> 3:40 AM
Subject: Ree's on her way

Thank you, Yo

>>>>>>

 

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I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared. ^{Dedicated to MSG.Wilson while on deployment to Afghanistan..}

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Michael Korrs Brings Out the Sexy!

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-----Original Message-----
From: bdub
To: Yo
Sent: Fri, Aug 23, 2013 3:01 am
Subject: Re: Come N Get Me

Make it do what it do than

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From:	Yo
To:	bdub
Subject:	Re: Come N Get Me
Date:	Thu, Aug 22, 2013 11:31 am

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You're my business to know! 

When I was making the $, I needed to conserve as a parent. You met me during tough times. 

Now, I am about both the man and the career. Now, I can turn it up to get what I want.


Sent from my personalized C Spire Wireless Samsung Galaxy S

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bdub wrote:

Thats Hot! My style

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From:	Yo
To:	bdub
Subject:	Come N Get Me
Date:	Wed, Aug 21, 2013 3:57 pm
Attachments:	2013-08-21_15.01.40.jpg (230K)

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Now, this is for you. And job interviews! Heels, thong, and earrings.

 Sent from my personalized C Spire Wireless Samsung Galaxy S
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From:	Yo
To:	bdub
Subject:	Re:
Date:	Wed, Aug 21, 2013 12:14 pm

Pics coming

Sent from my personalized C Spire Wireless Samsung Galaxy S

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From:
bdub
To:
Yo
Subject:
Re:
Date:
Wed, Aug 21, 2013 11:52 am

U right

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From: Yo
To: bdub 
Sent: Wednesday, August 21, 2013 11:18 AM
Subject: Re: 

Ambition and sexy .... Keeps your dick hard

Sent from my personalized C Spire Wireless Samsung Galaxy S

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bdub wrote:

What! You stepping up yo Game? Its nice and pink
 
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From: Yo

To: Bdub
Sent: Tuesday, August 20, 2013 10:51 AM
Subject: 
  

Do you like this one? Pink <3

Sent from my personalized C Spire Wireless Samsung Galaxy S

Maybe He Doesn't Know How to be a Boyfriend

From:	bdub
To:	Yo
Subject:	Re: Navy Letter
Date:	Mon, Aug 19, 2013 3:39 am

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Great! Got it all and using this time to sort thru thing can be the blessing that is needed. Not everyone has courage and glad you are using it for future gains. Love the ambition and that are the tools needed for me to climb the latter. Don't like how things ended but its the best for both to grow. Go thru your journey and we will stay in touch. Keep your head in the game and im rooting for a home run  to success. Got it so do Your Thing.

 

Mr. W

 

From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Sunday, August 18, 2013 6:46 AM
Subject: Re: Navy Letter

Why stay in place: no friends, no family, working two dead end jobs and pay rent in a place which provided stability for the daughter that has now moved on with adulthood?

The PX wanted me to choose between the two jobs, Now, they are cutting the hours again. Said they need someone to be able to work split days not just the weekend. If I'm going to quit one ... why not quit both and move on! Once Ree was gone ... I asked why am I staying here?

With the sale of the truck and all of the furnishings, except my artwork and a couple of other items ... It will be much easier to move to the next level ... wherever that is. I'm not going to find it here in Wiggins, Hattiesburg or Gulfport. The $8,000.00 is from the sales ... so I haven't had to touch my savings.

 

Nancy, offered when you were here. It may be for a month, couple of months .... there are millions of soldiers returning unemployed. Being closer to DC area will hopefully help me In the job market. She says there 3% unemployment in Morgantown. I've forwarded my resume to her. She left FEMA and is working in Veteran's Affairs at the VA Hospital.

 

I am very committed to the promise I've made to you and myself ... to start a journey of self-discovery. Who is Yo when she has no one to care for? How does Yo care for herself? What does Yo want for herself? To all of those questions, you were correct! I don't know.

 

I am already to late to consider re-entering law school this semester ... but I'm looking into it. Maybe that will be the next stop ... when I can concentrate on going full-time and not have to work the first year.

 

No, SOS to Ree. I don't want her worrying about me. I don't want you to worry about me. If things are not comfortable at Nancy's, I can go to my home in Baltimore. Remember, I still own a home!

 

Do you see that scripture under my name? Although, I pray everyday for you, I also pray for me. I believe God is working it all out. For the house, truck, Ree and you to all leave at the same time? Freeing me to move around without having to consider houses, cars, children and someone that I have looked upon as my future life's partner ... is huge! I know it's God splitting the Red Sea and telling to just go ahead and walk through. He's holding back the walls of water protecting me from being swallowed up by debt! You've witnessed it!

 

How many people can have a $90K job taken away from them and not be in financial ruin? I will be okay. God has always provided for me ... you tell me "Always". That what that means to me, God Always! Just pray for me.

 

Stove, refrigerator and washer/dryer sold today. What doesn't sell, I'll put in consignment.

 

I love you Mr. Wilson.

 

Thank you, Yo

 

I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared. ^{Dedicated to MSG.Wilson while on deployment to Afghanistan..}

-----Original Message-----
From: bdub
To: Yo
Sent: Sun, Aug 18, 2013 1:44 am
Subject: Re: Navy Letter

What are you doing. End of month is the start of you new journey where? I guess that's how you going to take thing to the next level. Strong but I can't do it. Will send out a SOS to Ree.

From: Yo
To: bdub
Sent: Saturday, August 17, 2013 9:19 AM
Subject: Navy Letter

Received a letter from Ree, a form letter giving me information about recruit training, graduation date, and her address: Write her.

I've resigned both positions and will be leaving at the end of the month. My first stop will be to Nancy's in West Virginia. I'll be able to keep whatever belongs I decided were irreplaceable there.

I wrote this really long email and as I was sending it ... It erased, except for those few letters. I guess God said, "Yo, you're saying talking to much."

 

Thank you, Yo

 

I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared. ^{Dedicated to MSG.Wilson while on deployment to Afghanistan..}