I Admit It!

God,

I do miss her so much. It feels like she is in her room like always, with the door shut ... tv on, ipad mini on, and her ... on her iPhone.

I wonder what her day was like today.

We have never gone a day without talking with each other.

44 was right ... no matter what I should have never called her outside of her name. Even though I know in my heart that he was wrong in that it could destroy or impact her perception of herself or self-esteem ... she's too mean and ornery for that -- that meanness and orneriness is what I was calling out -- her conduct, her interaction at times with me. Right now, I do have regret.

In my heart, I know that my daughter's love for me is unconditional. In my heart, I know that my daughter knows that my love for her is unconditional. She knows that there's nothing I wouldn't do for her. I know there's nothing she wouldn't ask.

I do miss her but would not want anything else for her ... I am proud of her.

Thank you God