Acknowledge All Things for the good of God's People

Hi God,

Sean made the statement that all I had is because of him .... hmmm, I've heard that before, Michael McGrady, who stated over dinner that I wouldn't be where I am (FEMA) if it wasn't for him.

Now, my husband is saying the same. Yet, I do agree. I believe his 10 points veteran preference that I use probably got me the interview with the VA. But I did the interview.

I went to make coffee and got the creamer out of the fridge, that he brought for me the day I came home from FEMA. He took the unopened container from me and poured it down the drain. The unopened bag of Dunkin' Donut coffee, opened and emptied in the trash.

All I can do is shake my head. I took the machine back but felt guilty that I had stooped to his level.  I apologized for the reaction and wanted him to have this for the sake of his health. He's suppose to wear his Cpap machine every night ... to breathe.

God whatever Your will is for my life, I thank You in advance.

Yo

Being Comfortable with the Silence ..... Treatment, LoL

Hi God,

What would I do without you .... I really don't know and don't want to know.

It's been a little over two weeks now. No hello, good-bye, questions, barely wants to answer any.

He's absolutely ridiculous.                   

Got a cpap sterilization machine for Valentine's Day. Did he deserve it .... NO! But, do I deserve all that YOU do for ME!? NO.

I guess the phone ringing at 3:30am in the morning was a thank-you call. I didn't answer. Take yourself out of your bitterness, come upstairs, and see thank you in person. Didn't happen until the next morning. He mulled around the question waiting .... we I came downstairs, he offered a thank-you for the machine.

Back to his usual! He's either locked up in his room until I leave which is pretty much everyday! Or, he steps out ... which is unusual and sits in the living room to watch television.

Silence ... is so much better than the bitch, whore, leaches!

The 5:30pm to 2am shift at the VA is tough. Not on a sleeping schedule yet. But, even this is an opportunity for me to escape the evening confrontations.

So, again ... it's YOUR plan. I am an ACTIVE participant Lord God. Continue to give me discernment and vision.

Thank you so very much,
Yo

Oops!

Good morning God!

So funny last night .... printed my ticket, did my hair, getting dressed, calling an Uber, heading out to the show! See the banner on the corner ... a block away from the venue. Driver will you cut the light on please .... pull out my ticket. The show is next week! Geez, uber driver, please take me home

Praise Report - Credit Card Debt Free

Hi God!

Went to a Debt-Free Workshop at Second Baptist Church in Pearland, Texas.

I listened to Dave Ramsey's Snowball Approach.

Now, he differs from other's because he says to close the credit accounts.

Suzie Orman says pay off the debt and keep the accounts open. 

I haven't closed any accounts but I will cut them up!

Just found a U.S. News' article outlining how to close credit accounts .... The Right Way!

Thank you Lord for watching over me.

I love you for my covering, for my life.

Yo

My First Night Home: Same Shit, Different Name

Hi God,

First day back from demobilization. Asked my husband ... how about us spending the night together. To my surprise ... I got an unanticipated rebuttal. He asked, why spend one night together? I'm thinking why the discussion.

I explained that I have hopes for us, our marriage. With the months apart from the deployment, we would be able to begin rebuilding, fixing, the foundation of our marriage. Continue the work I thought we were doing in our nightly conversations. Yet, I did want to move all the way back into the master bedroom for the same reasons. There has been a lot of broken promises, commitments, betrayal, disrespect, the spitting, name calling, JAIL! ALOT OF GARBAGE TO SORT THROUGH.

After my efforts were rebuked, I went on upstairs to my bedroom leaving him in the living room. Later, I noticed he's in his bedroom with the door closed. Deja Vu!

I went down to his bedroom to cut of the television ..... his cell phone ringing .... 11:30pm. I look at the phone face and its a number with a name. Itching to answer I don't .... send it to voicemail .... Guess what ... God, I know you already know, lol. It's rhetorical. The number call back! Ok, now we know what time it is. Still I didn't answer but "she" did leave a voicemail this time.

So the next morning, I had Sean a piece of paper with the number on it .... "I don't know this number" he says. Whatever! I offered this is a good time for an explanation, an opportunity to clear up this lie and explain. Nope, he kept to his story ... TELEMARKETER! SMH .... REALLY!

Well, I texted the telemarketer:

"Good morning, This is Yo, the wife of Sean______. You called him last night while he was sleeping. He didn't have your named saved to his phone. So I just took down the number. When I presented the number to him this morning, he doesn't know it. You wil not be the first woman that my husband has not disclosed his marital status. Therefore, I have no issues with you. Unless you knew. You know now. You have my number."

I told Sean about the text. He said she's going to call you. In surprise, why? She has no reason to call me ... she should be calling you! Maybe she did, I'm not sure. But when I went to go check my phone. Surenuff, I had a missed call. I called her back. "Hello", "Hello" she replied. "I'm sorry I don't know your name but I don't need to." She asks, "Is he with you now?" "Yes, right in front of me" "May I speak to him." "Surely" "Sean, the telemarketer would like to speak to you." "Ah, ah, ah" "Mam, I think he doesn't want to speak with you on my phone. I think he's going to call you back from his phone after he leaves our home." "Ok" "Good-bye"

Will his lying and cheating ever stop. There is never any remorse. Just the opposite. Now, the name calling is back: Bitch, Whore, Leach, Freeloader! He's back!

Took liverwurst out of the fridge to eat. Sean hurries out of his seat to the kitchen grabs the sandwich meat from my hand, out of my mouth, and the remaining package on the counter, Sean, I rather throw it in the trash than to allow you to eat it. The turkey burgers he snatched, I'll piss on them first. The bag of coffee, he threatens to open and empty in the trash.

God, you would of thought that I did the betraying.

As long as I have you Lord, I'll will be okay,

Yo

Reunited Again! The Past 5 Months

Hello God!

The past five months have been a whirlwind to say the least.

FEMA called with an orientation schedule giving enough notice to schedule time away from my employer.

Then it happened, Hurricane Harvey, Maria and Irma all within weeks of each other. Now, expect to be deployed from EMO: Emergency Management Orientation. Resigned from my employer and off to EMO!

Went from Virginia to Nevada to Texas! Left September 17th, one day home in November, and demob to return home Feb. 2, 2018.

I had three interviews: landed one of the them .... the least pay but may have farther reaching benefits! The VA!

Thank you God!

YO!