Hurricane Laura

Hi God,

Thank you for life, my mom's, my children, my friends, mines .... Thank you

So, its been almost three weeks since I talked to my husband. Last time, I'm still protesting being asked to sign refinancing the house. Him, sign the paperwork for the house or sign divorce papers. I said I needed to go to answer another call coming in.

Today, I called him to check on Hurricane Laura and if whether he's being impacted. I commented despite being angry with me ... He said he wasn't .... I stated we hadn't talked since the last discussion regarding the house. I guess angry would be better than the indifference I heard in his vice, at least he felt something. But, he doesn't .. he could care less...more of the same. 

I didn't do what he wanted ... Sign my name, my credit, my income over to him ... a quick claim deed .... I don't know what he is up to, but it doesn't sound like he has "us" in mind. It is about Sean. I guess all that regret he expressed. How he didn't go to our God, for guidance, he just reacted selfishly ... has dissipated. 

I prayed for the Lord God to fix my husband, my marriage or give me a window, a door, an escape to get out. He did. If Sean wanted to fix this marriage, then, he would have made an effort. He tore it down and he should be the rebuilder .... Amen 

I was calling and wanted to make sure he was okay. He said it was sunny, no rain. I said I was just checking in and wished I had called earlier if he wanted to evacuate to Atlanta. Didn't want him to be there alone if there was damage.

He said, "Alone?" I made no comment. His question implied ... Why should you assume that I am alone. And he's right. He's started back at the gym. That where he started most of his affairs. So, old Sean returns.

Few more comments from me and then said I said good-bye.

Scars aren't reminders of what's broken; rather, they are reminders of what's newly created.

Thank you God,
Yo

August - CRAZY!!! BULLSHIT

3am

God,

What would I do without you ... where would I be if I didn't know you? Thank you! Thank you!

Not even sure where to begin

My Husband ..... What Could He Be Thinking?????

Asking me to sign to refinance the home in Mississippi! I'm not sure if I wrote about it ... I had to ...

The day I went to work, after waking up with him in the same bed .... came home from work only to find him gone. Moved out! He purchased a home without me, claiming to be single. Later, according to him, his ex-wife, an attorney, advised him to refinance the house to remove the equity so there would be nothing to divide in the divorce. Still, my signature was not requested. Why would I sign on an upside-down $250k mortgage to a property that I never felt a part of ... where I cooked, cleaned, laid my head, shared a bed ......... Haven't talked to him in over 1 1/2 weeks. I'M NOT SIGNING ANYTHING. He did so much behind my back ... I not doing it. Mind you, just the day before, he was talking crazy about an uncontested divorce taking less than 30 days. Why would I consider such ... all of his cheating ... uncontested ... I had to send him a screenshot to remind him of the same. Crazy

My Mom ..... What Could They Be Thinking????

My Mom's cancer has spread to her liver. Feeling like she's at Death's door, she wanted to go home to see and be with her sisters. Tell me why did that almost turn into a hijack!

Prior to leaving, advising my Mom that she had over $1K in her account, reminding that your money will drop while at home, if I see any unusual withdrawals ... I'm going to transfer $2k into my account.

And that is what happened. I transferred $2k to my account. Gave Ree $500 per her instructions. $1500 remaining. I texted her to let her know. Then came the fury ... PUT MY MONEY BACK! I'M NOT A CHILD! and more of the same tone ... Now, mind you ... I've been on my Mom's account forever ... Regrettably, I was baited ... hook, line, and sinker. I was angered knowing that it wasn't my Mom texting, but that she would allow someone to impersonate her, using her phone, with such venom. I told her to stay there and whoever is texting ... stay with them ... I'm cancelling your return home flight. I did this two more time ... things get smooth over .... then, the texts again, demanding return of the money. I told her she could have when she returned home or if deciding to stay ... I'll use to relocate her belonging back home.

I am truly disappointed in myself that I would allow myself to place my Mom in harm's way that could have ultimately removed her from our home and my care.

Happy Endings ....

My Sister flew here bringing our Mom. She's back in her room. Safe. She went to her cancer treatment at Emory. My Sister and I are healing. My Mom, Sister, and I are healing as a trio, as a trinity. We are stronger together.

We thwarted that attempted overthrow! And Mom still have her $1500.

Thank you God for grace and covering.

I love you always :)

Yo