Men Were Never My Best Decision

Dear God,

You know like I know ... Men were never my best decisions. Oh, I could/can get them, even now @ 52 years old.   Chrisette Michele sings it best, "I only asking for a couple of forever's" (click photo)

Picking them, I was never good at it. Always choosing the wrong ones. I can accept the loss and uncertainty. I just do not want to lose the ability to love. To believe in love, be open to be love, accepting, deserving. The greatest gift.


Don't think 44 is one of them. I didn't.

He wasn't honest with me. The honesty that he promised me when we first spoke .. almost 2 years ago. I trust the God in him. I wanted him to be the one ... I wanted me the be the one. He was my best friend. I'm trying not to be angry and bitter .... vengeful. Pain and hurt can harden you.... God, I don't want that for me. 44 is selfish and mean with me. I don't deserve his mistreatment.

I was not the one. That doesn't make him the enemy. He's not the one. I was wrong. He wasn't the man he proclaimed to be. A man of God shouldn't treat any woman with such disregard. He said he would always be truthful to me, even when the truth hurts. He ignores me, disregards me.

I was wrong. He wasn't the man I thought he was. Probably, I knew that the day he left me 10 miles out on the trail alone.

I tried to show how steady and trusting unconditional love is ... It covers you like shade. I hoped he would trust this love ... trust me. He didn't.

Real, but not real. (click photo)

My love was honest. 100 ... I can live with knowing that I gave him my all ...

Masked

Hi God,

Please help me to rinse off, remove, the mask that I've created over the years ... Help me to discover the woman that I am ... Worthy of love, respect, companionship, friendship, loyalty, unconditionally ....

Love you Yolanda

Love you Lord, My God!!

Yo

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God, I don't know if I will ever see this man again, but I do hope so. If love was ever enough ...(Thanks Blake Shelton)

The prettiest hand a woman can have is with a ring on it.

1 Corinthians 7:1-40

Now concerning the matters about which you wrote: “It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.” But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband. The husband should give to his wife her conjugal rights, and likewise the wife to her husband. For the wife does not have authority over her own body, but the husband does. Likewise the husband does not have authority over his own body, but the wife does. Do not deprive one another, except perhaps by agreement for a limited time, that you may devote yourselves to prayer; but then come together again, so that Satan may not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. ...

1 Corinthians 7:10-11

To the married I give this charge (not I, but the Lord): the wife should not separate from her husband (but if she does, she should remain unmarried or else be reconciled to her husband), and the husband should not divorce his wife.  

Genesis 2:24

Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.  

Genesis 2:18 ESV / 6 helpful votes

Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him.”

2 Corinthians 6:14

Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?  

John 6:50-71  

This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. And the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.” The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?” So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. ...  

Matthew 19:9

And I say to you: whoever divorces his wife, except for sexual immorality, and marries another, commits adultery.”  

Matthew 5:32

But I say to you that everyone who divorces his wife, except on the ground of sexual immorality, makes her commit adultery, and whoever marries a divorced woman commits adultery.

1 Timothy 5:14

So I would have younger widows marry, bear children, manage their households, and give the adversary no occasion for slander.