Is it Me??!

Hey God,

Well, handed him my Letter of Resignation to Bethlehem Baptist Church today. Never in my life have I ever resigned from membership because I no longer wanted to be associated with the ministry or its leadership.

Last Sunday, an announcement was made that the Search Committee would be meeting with the congregation the following Wednesday. The meeting on Wednesday, full of arguing, people walking out, leadership/Search Committee condescending remarks, Head of the Deacon Board doesn't even know what day it is .... Search Committee announces the vote for Pastor will take place the following Saturday, yesterday. The issue came up about eligible votes, it was actually said both active and non-active members can vote. Who are non-active members .... anyone that shows up. Exactly! Any given Sunday the past year ... probably 20 attendees. Voting yesterday, I heard over 100 showed up .... children ... and whoever! The Galloway family came out like bugs under the woodpile to insure their brother received the post of Pastor .... I'm done! The best think for me to do is actually what I did. Resign. Done. Deuces!

Augh! Ras asked me to Lacombe, LA for a Crab Feast Festival. Shouldn't have went ... I feel nothing for this guy since he took no responsibility for the damage to my water line. May not have talked about this. The events took place last Monday:

Talked about my lawnmower being in the shop. Ras offered to bring over his riding mower. I would ride the mower while he weedeat the yard. Well, he ended up bringing his older cousin over, who later Ras says can hardly see, who rode the mower. I went into the house, cut on the water, no pressure. Ras at the door saying his cousin hit the water line. Ras stated he called the City and they were on their way out. I had to go to work. Ras said he would stay until the City arrived. That impressed me that he knew that was the right thing to do. He had already asked me the night of my birthday what I like in a man. I told him: CAPABILITY: THE ABILITY TO GET THINGS DONE WITH LITTLE TO NO SUPERVISION!. Isn't that what guys do? That's what Chicago does when he visits and he's my best friend, not a boyfriend, not a husband! I left for work believing I left my issue in CAPABLE HANDS. NOT!

Talked to Ras the next day. He made the mistake telling me that after the City told him that someone would be coming. HE LEFT! Left with the water fountain spouting in my front yard. Then when he showed up the next day to go bike riding on the beach, I went over to examine the damage. Ras followed me. When I asked him about an anticipated timeframe for making the repairs. He response was, Why? Wrong answer. Why? How about because this was not the condition you found my home prior to letting his blind cousin cut my grass. Then Ras further comments that he doesn't see the need to reinstall the faucet. WHATEVER! Then he further comments that he's surprised it hadn't happened sooner. NOT THE ENTIRE 5 YEARS I'VE LIVED HERE! So, I asked him is he going to contract someone or am I? Then its, I have a friend in the hospital, don't know when he's getting out, but he does this kind of work. WHATEVER AGAIN!

Mr. Evans came yesterday, with no notice, with the faucet and repaired the break. I gave the receipt to Ras today on our way to the festival. He stated that he was surprised that I was charging him. Did he not agree to repair the break! $25.00 dollars: $10.00 for the part, $15.00 for the labour. Mr. Evans wants the money to go to the Stone County Our Daily Bread Food Pantry. To have Ras make the check out to them. For sure. Then Ras said Well pay me for cutting your grass! I started and wanted to say, Kiss My Ass. But instead, said, I didn't ask you to cut my grass. I didn't need you to cut my grass. I have always cut my grass myself!

Contiued in silence to the festival. Really wanted to get over this thing with the water line. Music and food was good. Had a good time. Small event without the overwhelming crowds that New Orleans is known for. Ras asked me if I saw anything that I liked at one of the vendors. I did, a $35.00 turquoise and amber necklace/earring set by Tee's Treasures by Terry Zechenelly: 985-643-4945 (note for myself). He didn't have $35.00. WHAT! Why ask me if I see anything that I liked! Joe, always kept a couple of hundred in his pocket. Isn't that what men do???LOLOLOL!! They are always prepared to handle things. They know. I didn't ask nor to expected, but when you asked be prepared to carry through.

Asked if I wanted to go past his house for drinks. Not! Then he had nerve to ask for a kiss once I got home. NOT! He has no clue that he failed the exam when he left before the City arrived. He failed again when he felt there was no need to replace the damage that he was responsible for causing. He failed when he didn't think he should cover the costs of the repair. He failed when he commented that he should have charged me for cutting my grass. He failed for not having $35.00.

Deuces!

I tried God but I can't do a "3".

I love you much and with you I will always be good. Thanks again,
Yo