Hey God,
Just wanted to say Thank you. Thank you to my 44-year old giving me a call the other day giving me a chance to talk out my feelings. And of course, my perception was totally off. I am trying to just enjoy the budding friendship and the opportunity and journey of getting to know him. Sometimes, we get so caught up trying to fortune tellers that we miss what we have in front of us today!
One of my favorite childhood stories is Aesop's Fable of the the Wolf and the Sour Grapes. I don't want to be that. He's really cool, no drama.
You know, God, I do so much enjoy cooking dinner for him. He seems so content, AND APPRECIATIVE. He knows he has to go to pt! His body is SO fine! Calendar FINE!
Thank you for 44's intervention with Isaac. It felt good to have him, not once but three times put his arm up to keep me from going to the door. I didn't understand until 44 had a conversation with me later in the evening. All the boys and Ree are well aware of what pushes my buttons. Isaac's continuing escalating disrespectful behavior was off the charts .... He came to the house even after I told him that I had company. Isaac laid on the bell and wouldn't let up! As if to say, I know you're in there and I don't care what you're doing, come to the door NOW! Eventually, 44 went to the door, told Isaac I wasn't coming to the door until he was gone. Isaac continued to be disrespectful and 44 shut the door.
I've never experienced someone getting in between one of my children and me. Normally, the stance had taken the form of behind the scenes advice or in the background presence without any type of verbal or physical involvement.
44 going to the door, now I know ... not ever experiencing this before .... His putting his arm up, not once, not twice but three times to keep me from answering the door ... and then, 44, himself, went to the door. All 6'4'' and 260 lbs of sold muscle all packed neatly in Army fatigues. (Nothing more sexy than a man in a uniform ... Yummy) You will not be disrespectful to her tonight, not while I'm here. 44 put himself, voluntarily, as a shield of protection for me. I've never felt that before from ANYONE in all my life. Didn't recognize it as the events were unfolding. Wow. This is what that feels like. Finally, someone had my back. At least last tonight. ~smile~ Someone that I can trust and share ... the beginning of a friendship. Thank you God :)
God, Isaac, Dorian and Casini .... please continue to cover them. Please open their eyes.
Thank you for breakfast with Linda today.
Love you,
Yolanda
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