Hello Lord,
The past two days .... incredibly stessfull but I survived. Thank you.
Dorian being locked up for Failure to Appear! Traffic tickets!!!! He's learning. His girlfriend bailed him out. This is the first time I haven't had to put up the money. Thank you.
FEMA's deposition done. Ms. Russell represented me well. Thank you.
44 came by the store to say good-bye .... 5-weeks ... the life of a soldier. Not the way I wanted to say good-bye. It's better than him leaving and not seeing him at all.
Past 90 days, as of October 24th, I am wondering how he's feeling about me.
I have invitations to dinner but have declined. In the past, I would have considered as a potential transfer point. Bail from the unsure! Start fresh with the brand new feeling of relationship and attraction.
44 said the first 90 days are when you experience the euphoria of the new person, new attraction, heightened sexual energy and lust ... then the shiny starts to dull and you begin to see the person as they really are ... are they deal breakers???? or points of negotiation, compromise or simply a communication message yet to be communicated. I hope to have a conversation with 44 when he returns.
I'm reading a book entitled, "His Need, Her Needs .. Building an Affair Proof Marriage. Basically, it keeping the feeling you felt the 90 days for the duration of the relationship. Securing "the relationship" will be for the rest of one's life. I want the dinner dates to be with him, the intimate conversations to be with him, disappointments and achievements with him, the name placed in the spot "In Case of Emergency" All of that ... for him.
Lord, you have kept me close my entire life. Thank you.
With all my heart,
Yo
My diary of turning 50 in 2011, losing weight gained after an automobile accident and hopefully finding love. In 2014, I tested positive for the BRCA gene and had to have a preventative mastectomy. In 2015, married. What does it look like to be married to PTSD? CRAZY! SCAREY!!
Friday, November 11, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
This could have been me! Not! Rickie Lake????
Boy, looking at what happened to them ... I was blessed :)
Woman scammed by seniorpeoplemeet.com.
See my earlier post!
Hear about Rickie Lake's internet dating scare!!! OMG
Candidate for Arizona's Governor!! I'm in good company LOLOL
Woman scammed by seniorpeoplemeet.com.
See my earlier post!
Hear about Rickie Lake's internet dating scare!!! OMG
Candidate for Arizona's Governor!! I'm in good company LOLOL
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
44 & Counting
Good Morning God,
First let me thank you for all that you do for me. All that you've done and will continue to for one of your fledgling ... Can you be this @ 50 ... I think so ....I hope so.
44 has my stomach is knots ... better said, putting the responsibility where it belongs ... I have my stomach in knots when it comes to 44. His birthday is Thursday .... I guess I'll be calling him 45 :)
God, I so don't trust my judgement when it comes to men and relationships.
I think Sean may be correct in some way or another when he expressed his fear that when I begin to feel some adversity in the relationship or with the person ... I bail! Gone out the door. Cut my losses before I am in too deep.
But there is where I want to be ... deep in love .... To have that emotional security. Perhaps that's why Chicago and I became such good friends ... he always had an ear and shoulder available for me and without judgement. Chicago would always say ... I not here because of how you feel about me, it's about how I feel about you.
Having longterm relationships ... two ..... one in my twenties which gave me Casini and Dorian and then the other in my thirties resulting in Isaac and Maurie. Really didn't prepare me for the life commitment that I am desiring.
I'm not sure how much to talk to 44 about, how much to share, how much to expose ... I'm back to desiring the place or space for emotional security within the context of the relationship.
What I have done ... is not bailed. I want to talk it out. I want to know his thoughts.
Women do like to talk. We want him to actively listen. 44 does. I glad of that. His Needs ... Her Needs devotes an entire chapter on it.
44 will be gone for 5 weeks. Perhaps I will know more upon his return ...
I have to find a hobby or interest so I'm not making this man my world. I don't want to smother him or lose my own individuality.
God, a pray for peace of spirit and fulfillment.
Love you always,
Yo
First let me thank you for all that you do for me. All that you've done and will continue to for one of your fledgling ... Can you be this @ 50 ... I think so ....I hope so.
44 has my stomach is knots ... better said, putting the responsibility where it belongs ... I have my stomach in knots when it comes to 44. His birthday is Thursday .... I guess I'll be calling him 45 :)
God, I so don't trust my judgement when it comes to men and relationships.
I think Sean may be correct in some way or another when he expressed his fear that when I begin to feel some adversity in the relationship or with the person ... I bail! Gone out the door. Cut my losses before I am in too deep.
But there is where I want to be ... deep in love .... To have that emotional security. Perhaps that's why Chicago and I became such good friends ... he always had an ear and shoulder available for me and without judgement. Chicago would always say ... I not here because of how you feel about me, it's about how I feel about you.
Having longterm relationships ... two ..... one in my twenties which gave me Casini and Dorian and then the other in my thirties resulting in Isaac and Maurie. Really didn't prepare me for the life commitment that I am desiring.
I'm not sure how much to talk to 44 about, how much to share, how much to expose ... I'm back to desiring the place or space for emotional security within the context of the relationship.
What I have done ... is not bailed. I want to talk it out. I want to know his thoughts.
Women do like to talk. We want him to actively listen. 44 does. I glad of that. His Needs ... Her Needs devotes an entire chapter on it.
44 will be gone for 5 weeks. Perhaps I will know more upon his return ...
I have to find a hobby or interest so I'm not making this man my world. I don't want to smother him or lose my own individuality.
God, a pray for peace of spirit and fulfillment.
Love you always,
Yo
Monday, October 31, 2011
I Can Breathe .... Exhale!
Thank you so my God,
I know this isn't the place to talk about it ... but a major hurdle was met today. The past three years have been a horrific place ... Yet, a place where I've really had to rely on faith and belief.
I know in the deepest place in my heart and conscience, I didn't do anything to deserve what was done to me.
Next month, the next hurdle ... depositions .... First weeks of the new year ..... hearing.
God said He will make you enemies your footstool.
Thank you God :)
I know this isn't the place to talk about it ... but a major hurdle was met today. The past three years have been a horrific place ... Yet, a place where I've really had to rely on faith and belief.
I know in the deepest place in my heart and conscience, I didn't do anything to deserve what was done to me.
Next month, the next hurdle ... depositions .... First weeks of the new year ..... hearing.
God said He will make you enemies your footstool.
Thank you God :)
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Church Suppers, Brunches, Fellowships
Some of the most different, eclectic (I know that an odd word to use to describe food) but you never know what tasties will be at the church's monthly pot luck ... or found in the occasional fundraiser cookbook. I buy them at every opportunity!
I found an odd recipe for pineapple pie! It was such a hit with 44 and his guys at Camp Shelby... I had to post it for prosperity.
Lattice Pineapple Pie
Prep Time: 20 minutes
Bake Time: 30 minues
Bake at 400 degrees F., 25 to 30 minutes or until lightly golden brown. Brushing the crust with egg while will give more sheen to the goldening of the crust.
Enjoy!
I found an odd recipe for pineapple pie! It was such a hit with 44 and his guys at Camp Shelby... I had to post it for prosperity.
Lattice Pineapple Pie
Prep Time: 20 minutes
Bake Time: 30 minues
| 1 can (20 oz) Dole Crushed Pineapple, undrained 1/2 c. sugar 2 tbl. corsnstarch 3/4 tsp. salt (optional) 1 tbl. butter/margarine 1 tbl. lemon juice Pastry for 9-inch double-crust pie |
Combine crushed pineapple, sugar, cornstarch and salt, if desired, in saucepan.
Cook, stirring, until thickened and clear.
Stir in butter and lemon juice. Cool Slightly.
Poor filling into unbaked 9-inch pastry shell.
Cut remaining pastry into 1-inch-wide strips for lattice top. Weave strips crisscross over pie to make lattice top. Pinch edges
|
Enjoy!
Partnership with God
Father,
Thank You for the gift of partnership. Thank You that we can stand together stronger and more effective in building Your kingdom. Your Word says that when we dwell together in unity, You command blessing. Today I receive that blessing as I follow Your commands.
In Jesus’ name. Amen
God,
Thank You for the gift of partnership. Thank You that we can stand together stronger and more effective in building Your kingdom. Your Word says that when we dwell together in unity, You command blessing. Today I receive that blessing as I follow Your commands.
In Jesus’ name. Amen
God,
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Dating --- What does it look like?
Maybe more importantly ... what does it feel like? Social activities ... hmmm! Not quite the same as booty calls!!!!
According to Wikipedia:
Dating is a form of courtship consisting of social activities done by two persons with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as a partner in an intimate relationship or as a spouse. While the term has several senses, it usually refers to the act of meeting and engaging in some mutually agreed upon social activity in public, together, as a couple.
The protocols and practices of dating, and the terms used to describe it, vary considerably from country to country. The most common sense is two people trying out a relationship and exploring whether they're compatible by going out together in public as a couple, and who may or may not yet be having sexual relations, and this period of courtship is sometimes seen as a precursor to engagement or marriage.[1][2]
Casual Dating according to About.com
An interaction between two people who are looking to get to know one another better, without commitments or promises. Either or both parties can be casually dating other people.
Casual dating differs from friends with benefits, in that friends with benefits engage in sexual activity together with no commitments to one another other, whereas casual dating may or may not involve sex, but its primary purpose is to determine what kind, if any, relationship will blossom.
Dating and the Bible
Does the Bible say anything about dating?
No, but it does describe relationships.
If "dating" is defined as two single friends of the opposite sex doing things together for fun without any attraction or romantic desire or intimacy involved at all, there is no issue to discuss regarding dating. They are spending time as friends. The Bible describes and gives directions concerning friendship. But for most, the issue of dating involves "romantic attraction and desire." Therefore "dating" must be approached by what the Scripture says regarding romantic desire and marriage, the only relationship in which romantic desire is to be fully expressed. Also, in our culture, through "dating" people will often find a life partner and marry. How men and women view a "date" and "dating" can have a profound effect on their future. "Dating" is not a relationship, it is a method people employ in our culture to get to know others of the opposite sex that was not employed in Biblical times. The Bible does not talk about "dating," but it does talk about relationships. However, the Bible does describe three kinds of relationships with the opposite sex and gives certain characteristics of each relationship (there are others such as parent/child and sibling, but they don't clarify the issues of dating).
One kind of relationship the Bible describes is friendship.
Proverbs gives several characteristics of friends and friendships. Prov.17: 17 says, “A friend loves at all times.” Prov.18: 24 says, “There is a friend that sticks closer than a brother.” Prov.27: 6 says, “When a friend rebukes you, that rebuke can be trusted.” Prov.27: 9 says, “The pleasantness of having a friend springs from his earnest counsel.” Prov.27: 10 says, “Do not forsake your friend.” These verses bring out the fact that the Lord blesses friendship and encourages us to develop them. Friendship involves three foundational elements, commitment to fulfill the responsibility of a friend, care and concern for the welfare of your friend, and affection. The word "friend" means someone you like who also likes you. This liking involves a "friendship kind of" affection based often on personality and common likes and interests.
According to Wikipedia:
Dating is a form of courtship consisting of social activities done by two persons with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as a partner in an intimate relationship or as a spouse. While the term has several senses, it usually refers to the act of meeting and engaging in some mutually agreed upon social activity in public, together, as a couple.
The protocols and practices of dating, and the terms used to describe it, vary considerably from country to country. The most common sense is two people trying out a relationship and exploring whether they're compatible by going out together in public as a couple, and who may or may not yet be having sexual relations, and this period of courtship is sometimes seen as a precursor to engagement or marriage.[1][2]
Casual Dating according to About.com
An interaction between two people who are looking to get to know one another better, without commitments or promises. Either or both parties can be casually dating other people.
Casual dating differs from friends with benefits, in that friends with benefits engage in sexual activity together with no commitments to one another other, whereas casual dating may or may not involve sex, but its primary purpose is to determine what kind, if any, relationship will blossom.
Dating and the Bible
Does the Bible say anything about dating?
No, but it does describe relationships.
If "dating" is defined as two single friends of the opposite sex doing things together for fun without any attraction or romantic desire or intimacy involved at all, there is no issue to discuss regarding dating. They are spending time as friends. The Bible describes and gives directions concerning friendship. But for most, the issue of dating involves "romantic attraction and desire." Therefore "dating" must be approached by what the Scripture says regarding romantic desire and marriage, the only relationship in which romantic desire is to be fully expressed. Also, in our culture, through "dating" people will often find a life partner and marry. How men and women view a "date" and "dating" can have a profound effect on their future. "Dating" is not a relationship, it is a method people employ in our culture to get to know others of the opposite sex that was not employed in Biblical times. The Bible does not talk about "dating," but it does talk about relationships. However, the Bible does describe three kinds of relationships with the opposite sex and gives certain characteristics of each relationship (there are others such as parent/child and sibling, but they don't clarify the issues of dating).
One kind of relationship the Bible describes is friendship.
Proverbs gives several characteristics of friends and friendships. Prov.17: 17 says, “A friend loves at all times.” Prov.18: 24 says, “There is a friend that sticks closer than a brother.” Prov.27: 6 says, “When a friend rebukes you, that rebuke can be trusted.” Prov.27: 9 says, “The pleasantness of having a friend springs from his earnest counsel.” Prov.27: 10 says, “Do not forsake your friend.” These verses bring out the fact that the Lord blesses friendship and encourages us to develop them. Friendship involves three foundational elements, commitment to fulfill the responsibility of a friend, care and concern for the welfare of your friend, and affection. The word "friend" means someone you like who also likes you. This liking involves a "friendship kind of" affection based often on personality and common likes and interests.
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