"Ermea EJ Russell", Investigatory Hearing Scheduled

Ermea EJ Russell, Mississippi Bar Complaint, Dockett 11-234-1

The election is over. Today I called to find out the status. The case will be going before the Committee on December 20th. If there's a decision, they will contact me then.

From: <@msbar.org>
To:
Sent: Mon, Aug 6, 2012 11:42 am
Subject: RE: Docket Number: 11-234-1

Ms.,

I have been out of town for a week and have returned to work today. I apologize for not being able to contact you sooner. I do have an update for you, but cannot advise you as to when the Committee will be able to make a decision. I suggest that you call me at 601-948-0568 so that I can explain the posture of your Bar Complaint better and give you an idea as to what the Committee is considering.

Thank you.

 

General Counsel

The Mississippi Bar

From: 
Sent: Wednesday, August 01, 2012 8:22 PM
To:
Subject: Re: Docket Number: 11-234-1

Hello

May I please have an update to my complaint against Ermea Russell, docket number listed above.

According to your May 24th email there was a possibility that the case may been before the committee last month with a decision received this month. Otherwise .... November???

 

Thank you,

"Ermea EJ Russell", Loses Election -- KARMA???

(Perhaps, now that it's over and Ermea is no longer a sitting judge up for election .... The Mississippi Bar Review Board will finally complete their investigation and render a decision)


Here's the link ... I don't want to revel in her lost ... but here's the link to the election results

Russell loses!

"Its ok to be the sunshine while taking solace when what should happen does." My friend, Mr. T

JACKSON, Miss. (AP) - Vicksburg lawyer Ceola James has beaten incumbent Mississippi Court of Appeals Judge Ermea J. Russell of Flora

James' 8-year term begins in January.

James was a chancery court judge from 1999 to 2002. She ran unsuccessfully for the Court of Appeals in 2010 and the Mississippi Supreme Court in 2008.

Russell was appointed to the court in May 2011 by then-Gov. Haley Barbour, but had never sought election in the court's second district, which runs south along the Mississippi River from Tunica County, stretching into parts of Jackson.

Russell was the first black woman judge on the court, while James would be the second. Russell served as Hinds County circuit judge, attorney for then-Lt. Gov. Eddie Briggs in 1992 and the state Senate's top administrator from 1993 to 1996.

Congratulations! President Obama - Four More Years

From:	Barack Obama <info@barackobama.com>
To:	Yolanda
Subject:	How this happened
Date:	Tue, Nov 6, 2012 10:29 pm

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Yolanda -- I'm about to go speak to the crowd here in Chicago, but I wanted to thank you first. I want you to know that this wasn't fate, and it wasn't an accident. You made this happen. You organized yourselves block by block. You took ownership of this campaign five and ten dollars at a time. And when it wasn't easy, you pressed forward. I will spend the rest of my presidency honoring your support, and doing what I can to finish what we started. But I want you to take real pride, as I do, in how we got the chance in the first place. Today is the clearest proof yet that, against the odds, ordinary Americans can overcome powerful interests. There's a lot more work to do. But for right now: Thank you. Barack

"Ermea Russell", Attorney, Judge, Joke: Mississippi Bar Complaint Update

From:	msbar.org
To:
Subject:	RE: Docket Number: 11-234-1
Date:	Thu, May 24, 2012 1:26 pm

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New Update!

(Note to Readers: I apologize for not posting any new entries ... but I am committed to keeping this entry as the first read until a decision is made by the Mississippi Bar Association)

Thank you for your email. I will answer your questions to the extent that I am able.
 

There has been some delay in the Committee’s consideration of your complaint, due in part to the recent death of Ms. Russell’s sister. The Bar is actively investigating your complaint and I anticipate that the Committee will consider your complaint at the June 14^th meeting. Should the Committee render a decision at that time, you will be notified in writing within a month of the meeting date. Should the Committee not make a decision at that time, then it would be considered at a meeting in September/October of 2012. 

I hope that this information is helpful.

 General Counsel

The Mississippi Bar

 
Sent: Monday, May 21, 2012 8:44 AM
To:
Subject: Re: Docket Number: 11-234-1

Good Morning,

1. Any update with my complaint?
2. Is this timeframe typical of an investigation?
3. Are there extraordinary circumstances operating that are unknown to me???

Thank you,

I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared. ²¹ Pay attention to him and listen to what he says. Do not rebel against him; he will not forgive your rebellion, since my Name is in him. ²² If you listen carefully to what he says and do all that I say, I will be an enemy to your enemies and will oppose those who oppose you. ²³ My angel will go ahead of you and bring you into the land of the Amorites, Hittites, Perizzites, Canaanites, Hivites and Jebusites, and I will wipe them out.

-----Original Message-----
From: @msbar.org>
To:
Sent: Fri, Apr 27, 2012 11:16 am
Subject: RE: Docket Number: 11-234-1

A decision has not been made at this time. An investigation in this matter is ongoing.

Legal Assistant

Office of the General Counsel

The Mississippi Bar

643 North State Street (39202)

Post Office Box 2168

Jackson, MS 39225-2168

www.msbar.org

(601) 948-0568 direct

(601) 608-7869 fax

Winding Roads

Hi God,

44 and I have been down the road and back. A little with Ree's help ... sabotage!

I am hoping that we are back on track ... between the my scheduling at work and his availability I'm hoping that 44 is in for the long haul.

44 got his orders .... Houston, Texas in July. Still waiting for the promotion list to come out ... that may, yet,  send him some place else.

44 says I'll visit ...  I'm hoping ....

He's definately taking his time ... can't fault him ... I understand that meeting family will be a huge step for him. 44 has become a part of this family ... Ree and 44 ... 44 and Ree ... that's how my decisions are made with consideration ...

God, show me direction,

Love you alway,
Yo

Abandoned

Hi God,

44 is back from Saudi. Things just feel the same .... shouldn't there be some excitement, some anticipation about seeing the other. I don't get that from him.

Yesterday we went on our first bike ride since his return. Without telling me, he invited another soldier to ride. Normally I wouldn't have minded but this was my time with him since his return. Secondly, the soldier didn't bring his girlfriend with him.

When I got off of work yesterday, noticed 44 had called several times and left a message for me to return his call. When I did, he said he was on his way to track. Not okay, I'm ready to leave for the track was waiting to hear from you .... Perhaps, because he already had plans on riding with or without me.

I really consider my time with him riding as being very special. I just don't think we're on the same page. I try to anticipate when it comes to him. Is there anything that I could do to assist with .... and not anything specific ... just whatever.

Yesterday, it felt more like he was riding with the soldier than with me ... it was different. The soldier kept riding ahead, then 44 would leave me to catch up with him. He crossed intersection, where before he would wait. Then why didn't they just ride??? Because I asked 44 to ride was that why I was along???

The telling point ... 44 asked why I was riding so slow ... "You're killing me." I did tell him I know my way back. Perhaps I should have told him how I felt about the guest. I said to him that when I'm feeling like I am riding by myself ... then you can't be slow. His reply, "I gotcha." and rode off, leaving me at mile marker 8. He left me on the trail to go catch up with the soldier who rode off with a group of riders that were going more his speed. I was glad to see him go. 44 followed behind shortly after. Slap me in the face.

Remembering I had 44 keys with me ... I knew he would be waiting. What I didn't anticipate was the soldier would still be there! WTF!!! Whatever. Perhaps that says it all.

I don't feel like a couple. He doesn't involve me in the stuff of his life. He'll talk about his past. It will be a year ... never invited me home with him, I am almost sure that he hasn't spoke of me to his family. He hasn't made that commitment to me on any level ... not expressed to me.

Him leaving me on the trail ... left me feeling abandoned, alone.

If That's What You Want To Do????

Hi God,

44 is out of the country ... please continue to cover him. Cover me, Lord.

I'm not sure where we, as a couple, are??? He says we're good. But he left without saying good-bye ... I knew he was leaving but I thought he would talk to me before getting on the plane!!!!

If I am to give him credit ... 44 did call yesterday leaving a message on the home answering machine. He said he would call again.

I have about 16 messages saved ... sometimes I just play them to hear his voice.

It will be a year in a couple of months ... In a couple of months his contract loaning him to Camp Shelby will be up .... Then what???

I know You know ... I'll know soon enough.

As always ... Love you always,
Yo

John's Pineapple Upside Down Cake & Salmon Cakes

In His Hands ... What I Always thought Love Looked & Felt Like

Can I

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Dedicated to the Sexiest Man I've Ever Known. My inspiration. The reason I can fly again.

John's Pineapple Upside-Down Cake --- Next Weeks's Dessert

I found this recipe and figured I'd better post it so I'll have it next week! I'm going to substitute cinnamon for the cardamon. John's Pineapple Upside-Down Cake

Submitted By: Chef John Prep Time: 15 Minutes Cook Time: 45 Minutes Ready In: 1 Hour 20 Minutes Servings: 12

"This iconic American dessert looks like a simple, rustic fruit cobbler when it comes out of the oven, all browned and bubbling, but a few minutes later, when it's turned over and that gloriously caramelized surface is revealed, it becomes so much more."

Ingredients:

1/4 cup butter 3/4 cup light brown sugar 1 tablespoon pineapple juice 1 tablespoon dark rum (optional) 1/2 small fresh pineapple - peeled, cored, and sliced 1/2 cup butter

1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour 1/8 teaspoon ground cardamom 1/2 teaspoon salt 2 teaspoons baking powder 1/2 cup white sugar 1 egg 1/2 cup cold milk

Directions:

1.	Preheat the oven to 400 degrees F (200 degrees C).
2.	Melt 1/4 cup butter in a 12-inch cast iron skillet over medium-low heat. Stir in brown sugar, pineapple juice, and dark rum. Cook over medium-low heat until sugar is dissolved and mixture is bubbling, about 5 minutes.
3.	Remove from heat and spread pineapple slices in a layer over the brown sugar mixture, completely covering the mixture. Set skillet aside.
4.	Melt 1/2 cup butter in small skillet over low heat until the butter begins to brown and release a nutty fragrance, about 5 minutes. Watch carefully, butter burns easily. Remove from heat and let cool for 10 minutes.
5.	Whisk together flour, cardamom, salt, baking powder, and white sugar in a large bowl. Whisk in egg and cold milk until just combined. Pour in melted butter and stir to mix thoroughly.
6.	Pour batter over the pineapple slices in the skillet; spread evenly to cover.
7.	Bake in preheated oven until the cake begins to bubble around the edges, the top is browned, and a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean, about 30 to 35 minutes. Let cool in the skillet for 10 minutes.
8.	Loosen the cake from the skillet by running a knife around the inside edge of the cake. Invert a large plate over the top of the skillet and flip over, releasing the cake to show the pineapple slices on top.

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2012 Allrecipes.com

Printed from Allrecipes.com 3/19/2012

Apple Pie by Grandma Ople

Ingredients

• 1 recipe pastry for a 9 inch double crust pie
• 1/2 cup unsalted butter
• 3 tablespoons all-purpose flour
• 1/4 cup water
• 1/2 cup white sugar
• 1/2 cup packed brown sugar
• 8 Granny Smith apples - peeled, cored and sliced

Directions

1. Preheat oven to 425 degrees F (220 degrees C). Melt the butter in a saucepan. Stir in flour to form a paste. Add water, white sugar and brown sugar, and bring to a boil. Reduce temperature and let simmer.
2. Place the bottom crust in your pan. Fill with apples, mounded slightly. Cover with a lattice work crust. Gently pour the sugar and butter liquid over the crust. Pour slowly so that it does not run off.
3. Bake 15 minutes in the preheated oven. Reduce the temperature to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Continue baking for 35 to 45 minutes, until apples are soft.               

Okay, I used to square pans ... wanted more of a cobbler. Made two. Followed the directions on one: pouring the butter/sugar sauce over the top of crust, also cooking the sauce longer making it darker; two: pouring the butter/sauce over the apples, then putting on the crust and pouring the remainder over the crust.

I wait with anticipation to see what 44 thinks .... the guinea pig!

TREK

Hi God,

Thanks for placing 44 in my life. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me and that scares me. I love my new bike. Had a great time riding with him along the Trace ... 11 miles up and 11 miles back. Quite proud of myself.

It can only help with the continuing rehab of my knee, weight loss and maintaining my sexy. All which is important to me.

God, I ask for covering over LaShaytha and Isaac and their family. Lord, make their spirits strong in you.

I continue to pray and petition on behalf  of Casini, Dorian and Maurie.

Cover 44 in his travels and for the bereaved families.

Love you Yo

Beautiful Broad Shoulders ... Bald Head .... Can't Show Anymore!

Beautiful! Only God (click).

Purify Me (click)

p.s. Ladies, I've edited this photo about 4xs. Can't show to much of my man ... HAD TO crop out even better ..... stuff!

The Loss of a Child

Dear God,

I haven't talked to my son but you know how much I love him.

You know that I've always feared of one or all three of my sons dying before me due to reckless conduct.

I've feared that Casini will be harmed while incarcerated.

Dorian staying here and there and not knowing if he's okay from one day to the next.

Isaac, seems so angry with me, and I don't know why. We seem toxic with each other at times. Yet, although not successful in the fullest sense .... but who is ... is willing to keep striving to be a father, a potential husband and head of household. I ask a special blessing and direction over his life, Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit of my Lord and Savior be in him. Amen

LaShaytha's son was hit and killed by an automobile. My heart goes out to her. Isaac is by her side.

This young couple loves each other very much. I want so much for them. I want so much more for her. I want so much for him to grow into his own man. I pray for this young family, God.

Continue to put your loving arms around them. Please let Isaac's heart know that I love him more than my next breath.

I love you always,
Yo

Another Pinapple Dessert Experiment:

Hi God,

How are you? Right now it feels like a tightness in my chest ... so many things going on that are totally out of my control. I just really need to relax and take a deep breath.

Found another reciipe for 44: Pineapple Cake in my Biscoff Cookie catalog. Order the cookies today. Here it is:

Ingredients:

16            Biscoff
2              oranges, peeled and sliced
4Tbl         butter
2 tsp         sugar
10 oz.       fresh pineapple
4 Tbls       lemon juice
4 oz.         cream cheese
3 Tbls       sugar
1 Tbl         heavy cream

Peel and core pineapple and cut it into bite sized pieces. In a small pan, cream the butter and sugar then stir in the pineapple. Cook over medium heat for 7 to 10 minutes. Stir in lemon juice, remove from heat and add the tarragon. set pineapple sauce asside to bring to room temperature.

Beat the cream cheese, heavy cream and sugar until smooth.

Place 2 Biscoff cookies each in the bottom of 4 glass dessert bowls. Cover cookies with a slice of ornge. (I'm going to try it in a baking pan)

Add a tablespoon each of cream cheese mixture and pineapple sauce. 

Repeat steps 7-9.

Decorate with  crumbled Biscoff.

Recipe by Chef Philippe Conticini

When God is Your Boss

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“For exaltation (promotion) comes neither from the east nor from the west nor from the south. But God is the Judge: He puts down one, and exalts another”

(Psalm 75:6–7, NKJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

I know this man who was upset because his boss was really against him. The boss was always trying to make him look bad and would never give him any kind of recognition. The truth is that his boss was jealous of him. But, this man just kept being his best, working unto God. There were several promotions that he should have received, but because of this unfair boss, he was passed over. One day the CEO of the corporation was in town, and this man had to make a presentation. The CEO was very impressed. About a year later, a position became available that should have gone to the man's boss, but the CEO bypassed the boss and called this man directly. Today, instead of working for the unfair boss, the tables have turned. The boss is working for him. Always remember, promotion comes from the Lord. When you stay faithful and keep a right attitude, that’s when God will promote you. One touch of His favor and things will totally turn around! Keep abiding. Keep being faithful. Stay on that high road. God will make your wrongs right and promote you in your due season!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father God, today I humbly submit myself to You because You are good and faithful. I choose to work and live according to Your Word because I love You and desire to honor You. I receive Your mercy and grace today so I can live a life pleasing to You in Jesus’ name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen

God said, Yolanda, You are NOT ALONE!

God,

I enjoyed entering all, three of Your houses today: Faith Tabernacle Missionary Baptist Church, Destiny Christian Worship Center and Bethlehem Baptist Church.

Pastor James of Faith Tabernacle delivered his message from Luke16:19-31. Lazarus laid at the door of the rich man asking for crumbs from his table, asking to be fed, full of sores. Lazarus died and the angels delivered him to the bosom of Abraham.

The rich man died and was buried ... to live his eternal life out in torment in Hades.

Destiny Christian Worship Center's service was already in progress ... I went in and had a seat. No sooner did I sit down did the Pastor of this house beckon a parishioner to the front. Several of the women encircled her and laid hands upon her. I immediately went into prayer for God's Will to be done, stretching my arms and hands into their direction like a transmitter.

Then there was the offering of the Lord's Supper. I hadn't had the opportunity to thank the Lord for his sacrifice for me for such a long time ... before my resignation from Bethlehem.

Onward to Bethlehem, such mixed feelings, ill feelings .... But the Lord showed up in a mighty way for me. The man of the this house, Pastor Galloway, did an altar call for prayer. Two people went up ... I went up ... went into prayer ... Pastor Galloway never made his way to me ... perhaps he wasn't suppose to ... don't know ... just know that the Lord didn't bring him to me for prayer. Instead, the Lord spoke through Jamie, the Music Director, one of God's angels ... I love his evangelist spirit and a voice that make the heavens sway back and forth. Jamie place his hands in the middle of my back and began to speak the words the Lord gave him for me. I'm never alone, He is with me, I am restored! Go forward with a bold spirit!

The Lord used me again as a transmitter of His Holy Power into Jamie for increase. We were a blessing to each other and to all who were watching ... I don't why God used us ... but I'm glad to be His chosen ...

I made the opportunity to go and speak to Miss Tina ... now, Mrs. Jones. Wanted to clear the air with her .... not that I felt that I had to or needed to ... but wanted to .... I really wanted her to know that I hoped there was no ill feelings. I'm sorry that Sherman's misconduct was the cause of a lost friendship.

I enjoyed seeing Abby, Gertrude and Mom (Sherman's mom). They all received me with such big hugs, sincerity and love.

It felt good today to resolve things with Bethlehem ... not sure that I want to return there ... feeling fine at Faith Tabernacle ... want to hear the messenger of Destiny Christian Worship Center.

It was a wonderful day in this life of your servant.

Now, I ask you God to cover 44 in his travel back to Mississippi --- safe travel.

Bring him back to me with a renewed heart, renewed spirit ... open and available to receive all that life and love has to offer...

Amen, and Thank You Lord,
Yo

Good News

Hey God,

First, thank you for all that you do for me. I ask your continuing covering over my family and the women in my bible study. A special prayer for Ms. Pat and her husband.

Second, I apologize, dear God, for breaking my fast today ... It's so crazy ... I turned down the cup of coffee while at Ms. Pat's but went to the credit union and all I could think about was having a cup of the Keurig coffee. I sipped on the coffee from the credit union to the dress shop to Walmart. I didn't remember until I had taken that last sip and was putting the cup in the trash ...BAM --- my FAST! Blown!!

Took Ree and her friend to the Chinese restaurant and ordered an ice tea ... I drank it ... didn't want to send it back ... should have just left it ... but I did drink the entire glass.

Felt like I was one of the disciples that fell asleep while Jesus was in the Garden of Gethsemane. Twice he found them sleeping.

Lord, I'm back on track.

Thank you today for Ms. Pat opening her home and allowing me to share fellowship and this week's bible study, Beth Moore's David, Seeking a Heart Like His.

Confirmation: today's study: Three Hebrew Boys and the Fiery Furnance.

Thank you God for my dreams ... thank you for speaking to me thru my dreams ... I don't know why you bless me this way ... but I thank you so much!!!!

Today, we reflected on questions:

What has been my highest, my apex, my summit with God?

• My private moments before God,
• When I know in my deepest place that God knows my name.

Have you ever been in place where you felt so overwhelmed that you have no strength? Your legs just collapse underneath you to where you are sitting before God instead of kneeling? Yes!

One day at a time. God, overcome me with the strength that is not mine own.

Thus far, the Lord has Helped me.
Thus far, ---> to This far!

You are God! We know we've come so far when we can make the shift for our plans for God to God's plans for us.

Scriptures that tell us God wants good for me!

• God's will for us is good.
• God's purpose for us is good.
• God's work in us is good.
• The hope God has given us is good
• The works God created us for are good.
• The fight God called us to win is good.
• The fruit God produces in us is good.
• The gifts God gives us are good.
• God equips us with everything good.
• God works all things together in our lives for good.

God, I adore and trust in your words. Thank you,
Yo

Foot in Mouth Again ... Bridle my Tongue, Lord

Lord,

My foot in my mouth again! I promise, prayerfully, it will never happen again!

Just like then, I was wrong! So wrong!

Went to work but came home early ... This mess with 44 had me sick to my stomach.

He was on the answering machine ... "No, I not seeing anyone else!" He stated that he was very offended. Thought I was screening my calls ....

I called him back .. he was quite stern with me. He agreed to come by today. I thought it would be about dinner time .... but no, lunch hour.

That's when it happened ....

I saw the dinner room table set up with candles in heart shaped boxes of candy.

Went into the frigidaire and there was the dinner 44 had prepared for us! How small I felt ... and a bottle of wine! The same as  the one at his house ... sparkling green apple ... But I am on a fast this week of no breads and only water to drink. So, the green apple will have to wait.

I guess I do need to get a phone ...

When 44 arrived, I met him with the hugest apology and promised never to doubt him again.

So, I heated up the dinner he cooked red beans and rice, fried chicken and greens. I fed him and then I FED him to make my amends.

Now, he sleeps .... I'll never doubt him again, I promise.

Thanks again Lord for chastisement,
Put me in  an oven and refine me Lord, so that I may be worthy of this righteous man. Amen
Yo

Zechariah 13:9

New International Version (NIV)

⁹ This third I will put into the fire;
I will refine them like silver
and test them like gold.
They will call on my name
and I will answer them;
I will say, ‘They are my people,’
and they will say, ‘The LORD is our God.’

Busted Valentine

God,

Thank you for my health and strength. Thank you for loving and providing for me. You, alone God...


I was so hurt last nite ... he doesn't even fathom the hurt ... or its easier to ignore and it ... "And keep it movin" as he says

I asked 44 what plans he had for us for Valentine's ... he joked it off ... What day is that?

Well, he said he was broke ..  okay, its not about gifts but it about how you feel about me ... how I feel about you ... Is it one day out of the year .... No, but it is a day set aside by the calendar to take time out

I asked him to cook me dinner .... he agreed, at his place.

I waited and awaited. Sexy red corset awaiting ...  with the white tag ... after a finish the first sitting ... a cut the tag out :)

After two hours, I called Ree only to find out that he was at my place waiting ...

He believes I should have called Ree after 30 minutes had passed.

I believe that once he arrived to my home ... he should have turned around and made his way home ...

His comment, "how long were you going to wait... 3, 4 hours?" I felt so stupid at that point. I would have waited ...

Then, "You messing up my schedule." What does that mean???

I don't know .... but it doesn't feel like I'm a priority .... Never an apology ... I felt like the confusion was made to be my negligence.

What happened to "as long as a see a smile come upon your face .... I'm doin what I'm suppose to do"

If there's someone else ... I don't need or want this.

I handed him his present in the parking lot ... He didn't even know that I wore the red sexy stuff under the trench! He left mines at the house .... he didn't invite me in. Kissed me and gave me a hug. He might as well slapped me on the ass ... Excuse me, Lord ...

It felt like he came to tell me my alloted time had expired and he needed to "keep it moving" to maintain his "schedule".... He had somewhere else to be ... don't know that ... but it felt like it...

I don't want to be part of his "schedule" ... I had hoped to be part of his life. I had hoped that he cared for me as I was caring for him.

I really don't want to go to work today ... last night made me feel ill ... heartache ... heartbreak. Couldn't sleep ... I have such a headache.

Always,
Yo

I Look Up to Him

hEY GoD!

tHOUGHT i'D dO It A liTTlE dIFFErEntLY!

That's just too much work!

Last nite I asked 44 if he had any questions for me ... Surprisingly ... he did ...

But not at all about what I thought ...

How many guys have I dated since arriving in Mississippi .... hmmm ... where did this come from?? Although, I didn't ask him to clarify ... I answered based on the relationship that had an expectation of commitment and monogamy.... not the casual dinner or Match.com dates ...

I don't know God ... but I answered him: Sean, the retired Marine Lt.; Carl, the Constable; and Mitch, the local guy ... Not sure why he wanted to know about that???

His conversation then focused on Mitch ... Mitch stayed for what ... 3 weeks ... then moved out ... back into his trailer ... we kept seeing each other ... there was no betrayal ... different values, expectations ... goals. Eventually, we grew apart. If you ask Chicago ... he would say Mitch had a hidden agenda ... and when that didn't pan out ... he moved out .... away from the responsibilities of being the head of household ... being involved with a woman with large responsibilities ... children, my mother, homes, cars, bills ... and a large career! Mitch did say my world was toooo big for him. I, too, began to lose respect for Mitch ... didn't see him in that position at all, worst not capable ... or maybe he just didn't want to do that. Perhaps, he just wanted to be taken care of ... soak up ... without giving back!

Well, I thank you God ... my prayer for me it that You are enough for me. When You place me where You want me to be it will be.

I enjoy my time with 44 and wish for more .... he's taking it slow. I respect that most about him. he's wants to make sure she's, me, is the right choice for him ....

Cool beans ... that's what he said in response ... I guess everything, whatever that is, is good.

One husband: my man, my lover, my friend ... that's my prayer for me.

Is it 44 --- only you know God. I will say God that this is different than any other ... and as it should be ...

I purchased another book, Blessing to Your Husband. God, if someday you decide to bless me to be a wife ... I do want to be a blessing to my husband: to take care of him, his needs ... to pray over him for health, strenght and protection... for covering.

Is 44 my boyfriend ... I guess I'll find out tomorrow .. Valentine's Day

Till tomorrow,
Always in love with you ...God,
Yo

LETTING GO, JOEL OLSTEEN

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead”

(Philippians 3:13, NKJV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

We all go through disappointments, setbacks and things that we don’t understand. Maybe you prayed for a loved one, but they didn’t get well. Or maybe you worked hard for a promotion, but you didn’t get it. You stood in faith for a relationship, but it didn’t work out. One of the best things you can do is release it. Let it go. Don’t dwell on it anymore. If you go around wondering why things didn’t work out, all that’s going to do is lead to bitterness, resentment and self-pity. Before long, you’ll be blaming others, blaming yourself, or even God. You may not have understood what happened. It may not have been fair. But when you release it, it’s an act of your faith. You’re saying, “God, I trust You. I know You’re in control. And even though it didn’t work out my way, You said, ‘All things are going to work together for my good.’ So I believe You still have something good in my future.” There is power in letting go of the past and the frustration of trying to figure everything out. When you release your questions, you are saying, “God, You are in control. I trust You.” And when you put your hope in God, that's when He can heal your heart and lead you forward into His path of blessing.

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father God, I come to you in the precious name of Jesus Christ. Help me to forgive and release the past. Heal my heart and restore my soul. Show me the good plan You have for my future as I keep my mind stayed on You in Jesus’ name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen

Confirmation

Thank you God,

I wanted and thought appropriate that the  last 5 minutes of my two-day fast be spent on mediating on God.

So, I went to my bible, flipping through to see what the Lord wanted me to read

There was a page already turned back ...

Daniel ... skimming through Chapter 1 .... then two .... reading about the King Nebuchadnezzar

Then what do I read ... Chapter 3 .... The three hebrew boys in fiery furnace!!!

Love you so much,

Yo

Dreamin Tornados -- My Interpretation

Hi God,

At first I was pondering if the tornados were more, bigger storms coming ...

But now I believe:

There were blus skies behind the clouds

This huge storm came straight at my ... threatening my life, my existance

It shock the house I was standing in, and passed over attempting to take away the roof ..

But it passed, the roof and house in tact! Thank you God!

And the shadowy firgure by side me .... The Holy Spirit. The Lord put into myt spirit of the three hebrew boys in the firey oven and King said, or whoever, that there were four shadows present ....

I had shelter, a  place of refuge

As all ways! God, You Alone will always have me!

Thank you for the storm and bring me through! The storm is over! It's over ... My restoration and prosperity is NOW!

Thank you God!
Thank you God!

Dreamin' Tornados

Thank you God,

Thank you for taking and providing for me. Thank you for the covering over my childrn that are now adults .. guide their paths and when they stray, Lord, chasten their hearts and have them remember the right path. Selah

Last nite God you gave me a dream: Thank you DreamMoods.com

I was standing in an upstair bathroom in front of a camod that set under a small, high placed window ... the kind where you can only see the sky ..

To the left of me in the corner, next to the camode was a sink ... the old fashion kind ... white porcelin, attached to the wall with the exposed pipes descending underneath into the wall .... medicine cabinet above with the chrome trim ...

On the same wall as the sink was the footed tub ... white ... no shower .... no curtain.

Someone else standing beside me ... can't see him .. dark shadowy

Behind me ... my mom

We're all facing the window .... Watching the largest ass tornado coming straight for us ... the swirling dusk as it approaches is blocking our sight ...

We're realizing that it right here ... right now ... in front of us

I drop to the floor ... screaming ... get down!

I can feel the suction of the wind ...

I can hear the rook shaking and rattling to break apart

The funnel demanding that it come with its passing wind

I wedge myself under the pipes of the sink tightly. I feel that I am in a safe place, but unsure if my mom remains exposed.

I hear my mom yell

I don't feel in daylight so I thinking we didn't lose the roof and she's still with me

But I woke up ...

God, I asking ... if you're telling me that its nearing her time, please not now!

Please wait until my son can see her again! Please ... I will make arrangement for her to go home to visit with him, but please not now.

In Jesus name, I love you always
Yo

FEMA Settlement Conference Today

Oh God,

I understand that today may not be the resolve that I hope. The waters may get rough today. Your message through Joel reminds me to stay on the path.

Thank you for Ralph, Father God. Keep him on task and don't allow him to be distracted from the course. I pray that he is the instrument you have sent forth to assist me with this storm.

Lord, watch over 44 while he's doing what soldiers do.

Stop by and see Sean and keep a healing hand on him

Of course, watch and protect my sons and daughter. I love them as life and breath.

I love you Lord, God, most of all. You are with me always.

Love you much and thank you as always,
Yo


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When You’re in Deep

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“They saw the works of the Lord, his wonderful deeds in the deep”

(Psalm 107:24, NIV)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

The scripture says is Psalm 107:23, “They that go down to the sea and do business in deep waters, they will see the wonders of God.” Friend, you and I were created to do business in deep waters. In other words, we’re not supposed to have little dreams or little plans. We are supposed to have big dreams. We are supposed to go out into the deep things God has for us. But understand, when you’re out there in the deep waters, you can’t touch the ground. You can’t see the shoreline, and at times, it can get a little rocky. You may not always see how things are going to work out. But, the scripture tells us that deep calls to deep. In other words, God is the one who has called you to the deep waters. He is with you, and He knows there are deep things on the inside of you. Remember, in deep waters, you are not alone. God is with you, and He’s causing those deep things inside of you to come forth. If you feel like you are out in the deep today, if you feel like you are overwhelmed, remember, you are in the right place and God is with you. You will see His wonderful deeds in the deep, and you will fulfill the plan He has in store for you.

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father in heaven, I surrender every area of my life to You. I hunger for every single thing You have in store for me. I choose to trust You out in the deep waters knowing that You have good things in store for me in Jesus’ name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen

Walk Through

Walk Through TODAY’S SCRIPTURE “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me...” (Psalm 23:4, NKJV) TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria Have you ever gone through something and felt like it was the valley of the shadow of death? During the tough times, it’s easy to get discouraged. But I love what it says in today’s verse, “though I walk through...” No matter what you are facing today, know this: you are not alone, and you are just walking through. You don’t have to stop and live in the tough times! They are only temporary. I encourage you today; don’t allow fear to paralyze you in the middle of “the valley of the shadow of death.” Remember, God is with you. He is walking beside you. He is strengthening you. He is making a way of escape for you. He is lining up people and situations to bring you out of that tough place into a place of strength and victory. Today, don’t give up! Press on and walk through! Start to get a vision of your life on the other side. See yourself more loving, more faithful, stronger and more blessed than ever before. As you keep moving forward and walking through, you will get to the other side and walk in the victory God has prepared for you! A PRAYER FOR TODAY Heavenly Father, thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. Thank You for walking with me even in the hard times. I trust that You are taking me through my circumstances to a place of victory and strength in Jesus’ name. Amen. — Joel & Victoria Osteen

Securing Insecurities

Good Evening God,

The other nite I went on a nite out without him ... right now he's working out-of-town and was unavailable for me to escape to while Ree had her birthday get-together.

Went to the Beau Rivage.... never been there before. Halfway thru the evening, began to wonder why am I here???? The band was okay ... the crowd was single women or couples all over 50 looking closer to 60. ... Old heads ... with old lines ....

Should have just gone to my mom's but I did want an evening out. Haven't been out since 44 took me to the Hard Rock. This nite wasn't like that since 44 wasn't with me. Called it in early.

I came to the conclusion that I do want to share the evenings out with him ... the nite was empty.

Felt alot better as soon as the journey began towards home, my bed and in between my sheets.

I miss 44 and look forward to his return.

I need to find a hobby. Something to occupy my time and interest.

Lord, I pray for widening of territory. Use me in an area where I may be needed.

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

Many people today don’t realize that the reason they’re not happy, the reason they’re not enjoying life is simply because they’ve trained their minds in the wrong direction. They’ve trained their minds to worry. They’ve trained their minds to complain. They’ve trained their minds to see the negative. But just as you can form these negative mindsets, you can retrain your mind according to the Word of God and form godly mindsets. I believe one of the main keys to retraining your mind and developing a positive attitude is by learning to stay grateful. When you stay grateful, you are focusing on what’s right rather than what’s wrong. The seed of the Word takes root in the good ground of your heart. This doesn’t happen automatically, you have to discipline yourself. You have to make a conscious effort every single day until a good habit is formed. Remember, when you live with an attitude of praise and thanksgiving, you are shielding yourself from the attacks of the enemy. The seeds of discouragement cannot take root in a grateful heart. Neither can bitterness, envy or strife. So today, retrain your mind and be empowered with His strength to overcome in every area of your life!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father in heaven, today I surrender my thoughts and mind to You. Help me retrain my thoughts so that they are in line with Your Word. I choose to have an attitude of faith and expectancy and thank You for empowering me to live the life You have for me in Jesus’ name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen

Love you always,
Yo

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